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Nov. 28th, 2020 03:58 pm
dolorosa_12: (Default)
My name is Ronni. I'm an Australian woman, in my forties, and live in the UK.

Elsewhere online, you can find me at:

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A bit about me )
dolorosa_12: (Default)
Thank you for writing for me!

I'm pretty easygoing about what type of fic you want to write for me. I read fic of any rating, and would be equally happy with plotty genfic or something very shippy. I read gen, f/f, m/f, m/m and multi-ship fic, although I have a slight preference towards f/f, m/f, and gen that focuses on female characters. I mainly read fic to find out what happens to characters after the final page has turned or the credits have rolled, so I would particularly love to have futurefic of some kind. Don't feel you have to limit yourself to the characters I specifically mention — I'm happy with others being included if they fit with the story you want to tell.

Feel free to have a look around my Ao3 profile, as it should give you a good idea of the types of things I like to read. You can also look at my Yuletide tag, which includes past letters, and recs posts of my previous gifts and other fic I've enjoyed in previous Yuletide colletions.

I have treating enabled on Ao3 and would be delighted to receive treats for any of my requests.

General likes )

DNWs )

Fandom-specific prompts:

Benjamin January mysteries — Barbara Hambly )

The Bone Season — Samantha Shannon )

Cupid and Psyche (Metamorphoses - Apuleius) )

Galax Arena series )

The Iliad - Homer )


Legendsong series )

The Lions of Al-Rassan - Guy Gavriel Kay )


The Pagan Chronicles - Catherine Jinks )

Romanitas trilogy — Sophia McDougall )

Rumpelstilzchen | Rumpelstiltskin (Grimm) )

The Queens of Innis Lear — Tessa Gratton )

Sally Lockhart series )

Six of Crows series — Leigh Bardugo )

Space Demons trilogy )

Spinning Silver — Naomi Novik )

Sunshine — Robin McKinley )

Winternight series — Katherine Arden )

Tochmarc Étaíne )

Don't feel you have to stick rigidly within the bounds of my prompts. As long as your fic is focused on the characters I requested, I will be thrilled to receive anything you write for me, as these really are some of my most beloved fandoms of the heart, and the existence of any fic for them will make me extremely happy.
dolorosa_12: (tea books)
This has been a much needed homebody weekend, like a big breath in between bouts of busyness. Last week was A Lot at work — involving, among other things, sitting on the exam board for an MPhil course, which was a new experience for me, and unbelievably exhausting! My manager and I were involved as we graded one piece of assessment for this course, and it counted towards the students' overall grades (a first for us as a library). It was really interesting to meet the other examiners, and see the whole degree programme in full, since we're so used to just seeing and working with students for a small segment of it all. Next week will be busy in a different way, as all our first year medical students start their course, and I have to give lectures to all 300 of them, and then deal with them showing up in confusion in the library about various things in dribs and drabs as the week continues.

As planned, Matthias and I assembled the futon sofabed yesterday. It went about as well as expected: the instructions claimed that assembly would take 45 minutes, and it took us ... 1.5 hours, but at the end of it all, we have a functioning sofabed, and Matthias even lay down on it to test that it wouldn't collapse on contact. So far, so good.

Classes at the gym yesterday were hard. My attendance has been so haphazard over the summer, and while that's been for a range of good things (travel, visitors, etc) and I don't want to be the sort of person who organises her life around her fitness regime, it will be good to settle back into more of a routine as we move into autumn. One of the leg tracks in the first class involved lots of jumping up and down off a step, and I am definitely feeling it today (and I say this as someone who loves jumping)! The pool, on the other hand, was an absolute delight this morning, and I feel fortunate indeed to have ended up in a lane whose other swimmers essentially swam at speeds compatible with my own.

By the time Saturday film night came around, Matthias and I were too exhausted by our struggles with flatpack furniture to watch anything more demanding than The Mandalorian and Grogu, so that was our viewing fare. I wasn't expecting much, but it really was just a compilation of nostalgia throwbacks and tropes, and I found myself delighted in spite of myself. (Pander to me more, I said to Matthias when the credits rolled.)

Other than that, it's been a weekend of cooking (a [instagram.com profile] loveleluu recipe last night, and one from [instagram.com profile] labnoon this evening), reading, and dealing with the neverending glut of tomatoes that continues to burst forth in the garden. I'll finish with the books read, but I also wanted to flag a couple of fic I've enjoyed in the past week.

The first is not technically fanfic — author Rivers Solomon announced that they were going to be serialising a new original epic fantasy story on Ao3, and the first instalment is written already:

Once I Was Made of Earth (4814 words) by rivers
Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: Original Work
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Additional Tags: Angst, Fantasy, Science Fiction & Fantasy, Original Fiction, Nonbinary Character, Author Is Sleep Deprived, The Author Regrets Everything, Trauma
Summary:

Maybe you will knit the poem that makes the world where I might live

She flings herself into animals to see different worlds, and he writes tales that make and remake reality. In a land steeped in civil war and bids for power, they are prey.



And we've got another new Shetland fic from [personal profile] raven:

to pull wild mountain thyme (what we need is here) (7216 words) by raven
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Shetland (TV)
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Duncan Hunter/Jimmy Perez, Alison McIntosh & Jimmy Perez
Characters: Duncan Hunter, Jimmy Perez, Alison McIntosh
Additional Tags: Slow Burn, Ghosts, Magical Realism, Romance, big swoony romance, I’m having a time
Summary:

This little house could be the world’s heart. This place, Duncan thinks, with awful wryness, is his heart.

(On music; ghosts; coming home.)



On to the books )

I hope everyone else has been having lovely weekends!
dolorosa_12: (latern)
In honour of the fact that I'm likely to be spending Saturday afternoon assembling the new futon sofabed, furniture — flatpack or otherwise — is the subject of this week's open thread:

What kind of furniture fills your living space?

For someone who has a seething hatred of flatpack self-assembled furniture (and generally finds new stuff to be of poor quality compared to secondhand), I sure seem to have acquired a lot of it! Our living room furniture (armchairs and couch), our bed, and now the furnishings of the spare room are all of this type. However, almost everything else is secondhand (acquired from Matthias's family, or from various Cambridge friends, plus some stuff picked up from charity shops), and it's so durable and well made. We're limited with the latter by whether it's possible for the items to be delivered, as we don't drive, which rules out several options when it comes to secondhand furniture.

The whole lot is a mishmash of styles — I don't have the patience or the money to furnish my house in a coherent, consistent design, and rely on things like throw rugs, string lights, bunches of dried flowers hanging from the ceiling, and endless rows of bookshelves to maintain any semblance of interior design.

I hope everyone's well on the way to enjoyable weekends! Tell me about your furniture!
dolorosa_12: (rainbow)
I'm about a day-and-a-half into a three-day weekend, and so far it's been great. After months of drought and heatwaves, it would be the August long weekend that was filled with rain, but I was so sick of this new climate change normal summer that I greeted the rain with absolute delight. Matthias and I spent most of yesterday out on a day-trip to Bury St Edmund's, and managed to time things well, so that the rain only fell when we were under shelter.

We were there for a beer festival in the cathedral, where we scored the perfect table in the cloisters, and spent a fun few hours chatting, eating food truck food, and people watching. We followed that up with a great meal in this place, then caught the train home beneath dramatic sheets of black clouds, beating the rain again.

Today, I greeted the morning with a fantastic yoga class, taking advantage of our newly-empty spare room (the old furniture is gone, the new laminate flooring has been laid, but the new furniture hasn't arrived yet) to move and stretch with a gorgeous view of the rising sun and the birds and squirrels frolicking in the treetops and hedgerow surrounding the field across the road. Then it's mostly been cleaning and journalling, interspersed with reading (Four Aunties and A Wedding, Jesse Sutanto's fun sequel to her earlier comedic family drama Dial A For Aunties). I think the rest of the weekend will be more of the same, plus some swimming and slow cooking. All in all, it's been perfect so far.

Further reading, plus a link )
dolorosa_12: (emily hanna)
My TV watching declined in the summer, which is not such a bad thing — I was out and about, travelling, doing things outdoors, and just away from the house in general. For this reason, I've skipped a couple of monthly TV round-ups, as I didn't feel the numbers justified a full post. Here, therefore, is everything I've finished watching in June, July and August of this year:

  • Widow's Bay, a fantastic comedy-horror miniseries in which Matthew Rhys is the mayor of a picturesque New England island village which hides some very strange secrets. His desire to transform the town into a tourist destination wars with all the various supernatural shenanigans bubbling up at inopportune moments, with each episode a pastiche of a different horror genre (slasher films, folk horror, and so on). I really enjoyed this.

  • The final season of Lidia Poët, an Italian series inspired by a real nineteenth-century figure who attempted to become Italy's first female lawyer. She was almost immediately foiled in the attempt by the authorities and the legal establishment (despite having graduated university with the appropriate credentials), and spent most of her life working as a legal assistant to her brother, before being granted the right to practice law many decades later. The show takes these basic facts, and hangs around them a case-of-the-week legal drama, plus an overarching mystery that unfolds over the course of each season, plus a lot of soap operatic interpersonal drama (I assume the real Lidia Poët was not embroiled in a love triangle with her brother-in-law and the prosecutor who is usually her brother's adversary in each of the cases-of-the-week, for example). Everyone's beautiful to look at, the costumes are incredible, and the whole thing is a lot of fun.

  • Prisoner, which is not really something I can entirely recommend, but it is absolutely my kind of nonsense. The premise of the show is that a prison transfer officer — on her first day returning to work after maternity leave — is assigned to transport a member of an organised crime gang to court, where he will give evidence that will convict the leader of the whole organisation. Almost immediately, this routine trip is thrown into chaos: they're attacked by members of the gang seeking to silence the prisoner, and the two of them have to go on the run, hunted relentlessly (with threats to both their families) until they can make it to court. Fictional situations in which two people with utterly opposing worldviews, values and motivations are temporarily thrown together and forced to depend on each other for survival are absolute catnip for me (all the better if the experience transforms them both so that they both come away at the end a little bit more like each other), and this one well and truly delivered. The characters even spent three out of six episodes literally handcuffed together, they had to pretend to be a couple holding hands to hide the handcuffs in multiple moments throughout the show — it was that tropey. All that said, there are several plot twists that rely on characters making utterly stupid decisions, and there are ludicrous moments that really strain belief, so take that into account and recognise that I'm somewhat blinded by the fact that the show's core is a specific fictional scenario that I am particularly drawn to. But I enjoyed this so much that I'm seriously considering requesting it for Yuletide!

  • Interview with the VampireThe Vampire Lestat, about which I don't have much more to say that hasn't already been said, except to add that I definitely enjoyed the continuation of this adaptation of a book series I adored in my late teens. It treats its ridiculous source material seriously, retains its histrionic heart, and weaves into it something new at the same time. It helps that all the actors are clearly having an absolute ball.

  • Maximum Pleasure Guaranteed, a fantastic miniseries starring Tatiana Maslany as a woman who's found herself using the services of a camboy as something of a crutch to cope with her complicated life, when she witnesses (or does she) said camboy being attacked in his home. Her attempt to uncover the truth of what she saw on screen reveals scams within nesting scams, and throws her already chaotic life (she's in a custody battle with her ex-husband and his new wife, she works as a fact-checker for an online magazine — a profession the show acknowledges is on the way out as part of dying industry, which adds to the sense of precariousness — where she's trying unsuccessfully to obtain a promotion, and the everyday pressures of juggling work and motherhood themselves just add to the burden) into further disarray. Maslany absolutely excels at playing women whose lives are falling apart spectacularly, and she's fantastic here, alongside a great supporting cast. I'm so happy she was given better material to work with after the debacle that was She Hulk.

  • My Brilliant Career, an adaptation of Miles Franklin's classic Australian novel (which, although it's considered a sort of foundational work of Australian literature, I've never read) in which a young woman — who wants to live independently as a writer — is forced by the poverty of her immediate family to go and live with her wealthy maternal relatives in the hope that she'll make an advantageous marriage and relieve her family of their debts. Well aware of these schemes, and armed with the certainty of youth, she's determined to do nothing of the sort, and to find a way out that will not involve being shackled to a wealthy husband. Not having read the book, I can't speak to whether this is a good adaptation or not, but I found it a whole lot of fun, and a great portrait of a very specific time and place (immediately before and after federation in 1901), with a great cast of characters. I should take this as the inspiration to read Franklin's book at last!
  • dolorosa_12: (tea books)
    Just a quick Friday open thread today, in honour of the fact that it's just hit the start of a long weekend here in England (but not UK-wide).

    In general, I never take actual holidays (i.e. travelling/staying overnight) during public holiday long weekends, as it tends to be more expensive and crowded. Instead, I tend to treat them as a kind of gift of time — I stick to my usual weekend activities, but they feel stretched out and unrushed, and give me more time to do all the nice stuff in/near home that I enjoy. It's more time for reading, more time for cooking, more time for chatting with people on Dreamwidth, more opportunities to go swimming, more time in the garden, without the sense of constraint and rush that I normally feel on the regular two-day weekends.

    I do enjoy day trips on long weekends, and my rule is always that the longest journeys start on the first day of the weekend, and then you stick progressively closer and closer to the home as the days go by. It's always served me very well!

    So, that's today's prompt: how do you like to spend your time on three- or four-day weekends, whenever you're lucky enough to get one?
    dolorosa_12: (sunset peach)
    Saturday was filled with the standard activities: gym, coffee, a few hours out under the sky in the courtyard garden of our favourite cafe/bar in town, black sesame gelato, elaborately complicated dinner (Iranian stuffed capsicum and two separate Georgian salads, covered with a veritable bouquet of fresh herbs), film night (the extremely forgettable third Enola Holmes film, whose beautiful setting of Malta couldn't make up for the fact that very little happened, and what did happen was hammered home endlessly through characters' exposition, as if in fear that distracted viewers looking at their phone screens might lose the thread of the narrative every five minutes without it being spelt out), etc.

    Today, we took ourselves out on another August day trip: on the train into Cambridge, then out by bus to St Ives, and then a walk through the water meadow (which was of course parched and nothing like it looked during this soggy walk three years ago, nor when it was flooded in 2020, which was the last time we left our house/immediate surrounding area before the pandemic lockdown) to the village of Hemingford Grey. This is as picturesque as the name would suggest: thatched cottages, climbing roses and wisteria, and a lovely little village pub that was hosting a beer festival in its garden. We hung out under the trees for a few hours, surrounded by a varied crowd of multigenerational groups, and a cheerful array of dogs of all shapes and sizes. There was live music (the singer worked in the restaurant of the pub), there was food, and it was sunny but not boiling hot, and we had snagged the only table that remained in full shade for the entire time we were there, much to my delight.

    The afternoon was aimless and rambly and serendipitous. We ambled back into St Ives to try a coffee/cocktail bar we'd spotted on our way out, which was fairly chill in the outdoor seating area, but was absolutely heaving indoors, with two leathery older men doing a DJ set, and a cacophonous crowd of people dancing — clearly the place to be in St Ives at 4pm on a Sunday! Matthias and I were close to the youngest people there — and we're in our forties. We spent a relaxed hour or so there, stretched our legs along the riverfront, and made it back to the bus stop ten minutes or so before our bus arrived, which connected nicely with our train home. All in all, a nice day out. I've stuck up a scattering of photos and videos on my stories [instagram.com profile] ronnidolorosa which you should be able to see for the next twenty hours or so if you have an Instagram account, but after which point they will vanish; hopefully my words paint enough of a picture either way.

    Reading-wise, I've started, but not finished Sense and Sensibility, which for the longest time has been the only Austen I've not read (although of course I saw the film adaptation in the 1990s). I felt it was time to rectify this, and I'm having a fantastic time. It's hilarious and relatable — 250 years may have passed, but the feeling of being trapped in social situations with people with whom you have nothing in common and whose conversational range is lacking remains awkward in exactly the same way (even more relatably, there's even a scene in which Elinor is elated at joining the only counter which has a single customer ahead of her, then being exasperated at being stuck behind this one customer for fifteen minutes as he appears to want to look at every expensive toothpick in the shop in minute detail before making a purchase). But above all, while of course treading ground familiar from Austen's other novels, it's about the excruciating awkwardness of being a teenage girl ('a guy was friendly to me at a social event, so clearly he wants to ask me to marry him'), and I recognise the emotions, and am fervently glad that I have several decades of distance from them.

    I'll close with a handful of links. I've really been enjoying Sacha Judd's newsletter, and the latest issue was filled with flashes of recognition in terms of its diagnosis of the problems of the current social internet. That said (and I would need to read the linked article and listen to the linked podcast to make up my mind conclusively), it all felt a little too neat, and I feel that if we're including cafes and video rental stores as 'third spaces,' that's stretching the definition too far. In any case, there's lots I agree with, and lots that made me want to think further on this topic, which is a sign to me of an interesting newsletter.

    I also loved this piece on the revival of old folk harvest traditions, and it was a nice look back at the history behind them. It certainly felt timely as we sped home through fields shorn of their wheat sheaves, with only the dusty earth and bare stalks remaining.
    dolorosa_12: (garden autumn)
    We've finally had some rain, on and off throughout the week, with more on the way! It's a massive relief, and has really cooled things down as well. I haven't had to water my garden by hand since Sunday.

    This week's open thread prompt is brought to you by the fox that screamed the place down at around 4am, waking me up abruptly, and continuing in this manner for about twenty minutes:

    What is the local wildlife like where you live?

    My house is across the road from a large vacant field. As far as I can tell, it gets used by humans twice a year: once when the air ambulance does some test flights and test landings, and once when a farmer comes around with a tractor and turns all the grass in the field into hay. Other than that, it's absent of people, but is a great home for various wild animals.

    Over the years, I've seen a family of foxes there, as well as deer, rabbits, and various local cats. No doubt there are rodents of various kinds around, but I haven't seen any since the hoarders next door (whose garden was completely overrun by a midden of discarded rubbish and a jungle of brambles, nettles and other weeds the height of my head) moved out and their garden was cleaned up for the new residents.

    The trees in the area are home mainly to wood pigeons, blackbirds, and corvids, but I've also seen pairs of robins (there was one that would follow me around the garden as I dug up plants and eat insects/worms that were exposed by the soil I'd turned over), blue tits, and sparrows. In our previous place in Cambridge, we also used to get frogs and squirrels, but I've not seen the former here at all, and the latter only rarely. Ideally I'd like to get some kind of pond to encourage frogs in the garden, but we'll see.

    What about you?
    dolorosa_12: (summer sunglasses)
    The weekend began with oppressive, 38 degree heat that didn't really leave the air until after 9pm, and the fright of my life when I — along with other residents of England and Wales, received a government emergency alert on my phone blaring uncontrollably at 7pm on Friday. The alert was warning of a total fire ban; I, in an Australian manner, had been quietly horrified all summer that such a ban hadn't been in place, since water restrictions and total fire bans in times of extreme heat and drought have been a routine part of the summer since my childhood.

    Small rant )

    Right, let's move on to nicer things. I spent a lot of time yesterday out in the garden, sweeping up the mulch (which the resident blackbirds immediately hurled all over the garden path again, as they do every day), pruning the lavender plants and bundling the dried flowers into bunches tied with string (I now have hooks in the kitchen skylights where I hang massive bunches of drying herbs, slowly creating the cosy plant-filled kitchen of my dreams), picking apples and tomatoes, and doing other bits and pieces that I'd been putting off due to the extreme heat. I need to ferment some more tomatoes, as we have far more ripe on the plants than we'll ever be able to eat.

    On Saturday evening, Matthias and I headed out to Saffron Walden for one of the planned day trips that I mentioned in a previous post. This was made more complicated by our train terminating abruptly at Cambridge, with all further trains in that direction cancelled due to a problem with a level crossing, but astonishingly in such circumstances, the railway staff had everything in hand by the time we left the cancelled train, and we were whisked into a (free) taxi, along with four people travelling to Stansted, and dropped at Audley End station only about ten minutes later than planned. We then walked the forty minutes into Saffron Walden, along a winding country road, past bleached wheat fields, stands of ancient trees, and old stone walls, until we found ourselves on the approach to the town centre. We wandered around a bit, admiring the various independent shops and historic wood-framed houses, and ended the evening having a fantastic dinner at this place, which has only been operating for six weeks, and which was outstanding. It's a tiny little space (apparently it was a former hairdresser shop), and only seats about fifteen people, all along a bar where we could see the food being prepared and hear the chef talking us through everything. The whole ethos is foraged/local food (right down to the herbs and spices, which are all things found in England), minimum waste (almost everything got used multiple times, such as a cream cheese that was infused with a kind of flavouring made from the peelings and scraps of vegetables eaten in other courses; there was a lot of fermentation and pickling and fruit and vegetables infused in alcohol), and limited storage (they only have two tiny bar fridges). Absolutely incredible! Some of the other guests there had spent the whole day in Saffron Walden, visiting a local winery for lunch, and staying overnight in a little hotel in the town centre, and I think both Matthias and I were keen to do the same thing at a later point.

    I haven't really made much progress with reading, in spite of having ample spare time. I'm making my way painstakingly through a reread of a six-book series of Celtic fantasy that I loved in my early twenties, and am feeling embarrassed on behalf of my younger self. I can totally see why these books were among my firm favourites, but they are really, really not good at all. But I will save a detailed accounting as to why until I've finished all six. Those are my current work commute and lunch break books — I usually have another book on the go as 'reading at home' material, but this weekend, I've been a bit distracted.

    Beyond that, it's just been a lot of pottering around at home and wrestling with the rather confusing Bulgarian rail tickets website in advance of our holiday. We will succeed eventually!
    dolorosa_12: (daria)
    As per this post from [personal profile] adore, there's a scam going around in which the scammers send you a Dreamwidth message claiming your account's been compromised and telling you to click a dodgy link and enter your login and password. (I've seen versions on this scam on big social media platforms like Instagram in the past, and think it's pretty grim that the scammers are trying the same thing on a tiny place like Dreamwidth.)

    You can see more on the original post, and it's worth noting that if you get a scam message like this one, you should report it to Dreamwidth.
    dolorosa_12: (limes)
    This week's post is lazily inspired by the current batch of Friday Five questions, which I've seen floating around my reading page. All relate to vegetables. So:

    What are your favourite vegetables and/or what are your least favourite vegetables?

    My answer )

    I really must get an icon with tomatoes on it!
    dolorosa_12: (lavender)
    I've just arrived back home into baking heat. Outside of the shade, it's really unbearable, and I was pleased at the foresight of past me, who made sure to close every window and curtain before leaving the house, meaning stepping through door was a huge relief. I immediately rushed around watering my wilting sunflower plants, and am now hiding out in the darkened living room until dusk.

    Matthias and I made a plan to spend most weekends in August travelling locally — mainly day trips, although this weekend we stayed overnight — and these past two days we've been in Norwich, which is less than an hour away by train. I used to go there quite a lot about fifteen years ago, when my friends [instagram.com profile] cait.de.roiste and [instagram.com profile] proflroach lived there for a year while C was doing her teacher training. But those trips were basically house parties in their flat, a handful of pubs, and takeaway Indian food consumed on their living room floor — I hardly got much of a sense of the city, although I always had a lot of fun. This time, there was river walking (there's a fabulous track going through little paths for much of the length of the river), and cobblestone streets filled with secondhand bookshops and little cafes, and of course a varied collection of pubs that Matthias had identified. We stayed in a hotel whose predecessor was mentioned in the Paston letters, ate extremely well, and even managed to time things unintentionally so that we arrived back at the train station this morning five minutes before the next available train. All in all, I'd recommend it, and it was a good reminder that there are so many interesting places to visit, right on my own doorstep.

    I've read about 2/3 of my latest book — Honey in Her Veins (Ruth McKell) — on the two train trips in and out of Norwich, and should hopefully finish the remainder this afternoon. This is a dreamy, atmospheric little story, part gothic melodrama with slowly revealed horrifying supernatural family secrets, part mythologically resonant folktale (its two main point-of-view characters are respectively Arthur, who is possessed by a monster which causes him to kill and consume every living thing he touches, and Eva, the daughter of a family of beekeepers who trails verdant greenery and flowers in her wake and is always surrounded by a cloud of bees), set in rural Appalachia. It's the perfect read for these sweltering temperatures.

    So far, I'm keeping my own garden alive.
    dolorosa_12: (Default)
    Today's open thread prompt is slightly complicated to explain, and is inspired by a conversation I was having with [personal profile] windancer in a previous post. In it, we were discussing the A Meal of Thorns podcast, which I'll let describe itself in its own words:

    Each episode, we’ll be looking closely at works of speculative fiction, thinking about what they say and how they’ve influenced the field. We’ll be talking to critics, scholars, and other writers about what makes these books tick.


    [personal profile] windancer's question was: If you could go on the podcast to talk about a book or series, which one would you pick?

    My answer )

    What book or series would you discuss in your hypothetical podcast, and why?
    dolorosa_12: (rainbow)
    This weekend was one devoted to resting, and to getting done all the various little bits and pieces of life admin that had fallen by the wayside. I really needed it, and feel a lot less tired and overwhelmed than I've felt in a long time.

    We're in the process of changing up our spare bedroom a little bit. It's always just been a spare bedroom, with a double bed taking up most of the space, and otherwise just treated as a storage area. Given both Matthias and I work partly from home and use the third bedroom as an office (meaning one person is always relegated to working at the kitchen table when we're both at home), it seemed more sensible to have two usable offices. The spare bedroom also has the nicest view in the house, and we're never in it, which made the decision for us in terms of getting rid of the mostly-unused double bed.

    The whole thing needed to be done in stages: get rid of the bed and mattress, get the guy who did our flooring in other parts of the house a few years back to do the same flooring in the spare room (we couldn't do so at the time because of the massive bed in the way, as I didn't want to disassemble and then reassemble it), then get a futon sofabed and a small desk and chair for Matthias — all done in that specific order. On Thursday I put the bed up on Facebook Marketplace and within an hour a guy had messaged me about it, come around with his adult son and a toolkit and disassembled it, and taken the whole lot away. On Friday I got in touch with the flooring guy and he's going to come around to give us a quote next week, and on Saturday I got rid of some unwanted bedding on Facebook Marketplace and two dining chairs which had been sitting unused in the spare room just taking up space by putting them out on the street outside the house. We've already finalised the specific furniture we'll be getting once the flooring's done — all in all, very efficient!

    Other than the thrilling saga of our spare room, I've been pruning tomato plants, fermenting the glut of pickling cucumbers that have burst forth in the garden, swimming and gym-ing, and catching up on Dreamwidth and newsletters.

    Last night, on the recommendation of one of my colleagues, Matthias and I watched a truly ridiculous film from 1995, Party Girl. I was astonished I'd never heard of it — and then when I watched it, I realised why. The paper thin plot focuses on Mary, the titular party girl, played by Parker Posey, who just wants to spend her life at raves and nightclubs in New York City, but when she's forced to ask her public librarian godmother for bail money when one night out goes wrong, the condition is that she'll work in the library as a library clerk (what I'd call a library invigilator in the UK). The dialogue is dreadful, the music and clothes are fantastic, and while I'll give the film's writers credit for stating correctly that the job title of 'librarian' requires a postgraduate degree, and that not everyone who works in a library is a librarian, that's about as far as the realism goes. There were all sorts of weird little side character subplots that never really went anywhere — I would have watched a prequel film about the obviously fraught relationship between the librarian godmother and Mary's mother in their youth, or a film about Mary's Lebanese love interest and his unexplained feud with the rival felafel cart across the street — and Mary's character trajectory is obvious from the first ten minutes, but all in all, the whole thing was incredibly enjoyable in a so-bad-it's-good way. Earnest, bizarre, and unbelievably '90s.

    I've still got a hundred pages or so to go, but I think it's safe to say that I'm very impressed with my current book, Hannah Kaner's A Snake Among Swans. I had thought it was a standalone, but it's actually the first in a projected series, retelling the Six Swans/Children of Lir fairytale, but from the point of view of the stepmother. In the original fairytale and myth, the stepmother is motivated by jealousy of her husband's existing children (and, one might infer, insecurity about her own position and that of any children she might bear), and transforms them into swans out of sheer maliciousness. Here, our protagonist is marrying into the nation that invaded, occupied, and disempowered her own people, deliberately playing a long game that — if done carefully and subtly enough — will enact a suitable revenge. Her new husband's adult children are themselves engaged in various political machinations of their own, as their father keeps them on a tight leash, leaving them with nothing to do but vie for power with little care for those caught in the crossfires. A Snake Among Swans is a wrenching, brutal book, focused like a knife to the heart on what it costs and the strength it takes for a woman to deliberately walk into such a nest of vipers, and into marriage with a man who has done such monstrous wrong to her people in general and her family specifically, and know she must endure, and bide her time, and give nothing away until her retribution is sure to succeed. There is an immense power in being able to survive such circumstances, and Kaner depicts it flawlessly — as well as the immeasurable, bitter, bitter toll it takes.
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    I've been away for longer than I've liked from these parts of the internet, and just managed to catch up with Dreamwidth over my lunch break today. I had to skip back by 200 posts!

    My absence has all been due to good things — travel, my mum's visit, and so on — but it is nice to get back to something like regular daily normality. There's no open thread this week, but I'm hoping to get back into that from next Friday onwards.

    Have a few bullet points to catch up:

  • I was in Glasgow a few weeks ago for a conference. It was my first time in the city, and I found it fantastic: gorgeous buildings, great places to eat (especially in the west end), wonderful art galleries and botanic garden. Matthias joined me for a long weekend holiday after the conference was over. The conference itself was fun, although a bit odd since it was the first time in years that I've attended a conference without presenting. Too much about generative AI — not uncritical, but operating under an assumption that it's ubiquitous and here to stay, and so we'd better find ways to make it useful — which was unsurprising, but mildly eyeroll-inducing. Hilariously, there was another woman at the conference with an identical book-themed handbag to mine, and we became conference buddies as a result.


  • I was having too much fun to take any photos, besides this set in Rennie Mackintosh House. What gorgeous design!


  • Mum left after two months in Europe (not all of them with me — she comes and goes on her visits, flitting back and forth between my place and trips to continental Europe) earlier this week, with a hellish flight back via Singapore in which the first leg was cancelled and all passengers had to stay overnight in an airport hotel, and then the second leg was delayed by three hours. She and my sister are now about to go on a skiing trip to New Zealand. Oh, to be a wealthy retired boomer!


  • The garden continues to heave with vegetables, in spite of the drought and the water restrictions. I'm drowning in pickling cucumbers and cherry tomatoes, plus zucchini, salad greens, and various herbs. Every corn plant has multiple ears of corn ripening.


  • Now for the links.

    I've been enjoying the little flurry of discovery of Robin McKinley's Sunshine around these parts — if any beloved book of mine were due a renaissance, it's that one! I don't know how much of it is down to this thoughtful Ancillary Review of Books podcast (which I found via [personal profile] renay's newsletter), and how much of it is just organic internet word-of-mouth, but anyway, more of this! I was amused that Laura Zats said in the podcast that her experience of reading and enjoying Sunshine was such a solitary one, since for me it's been an extremely communal fannish thing from the beginning: I was introduced to the book by my closest friend from my MPhil year (we immediately clocked each other as being in fandom, we lent each other books, spent whole afternoons browsing the fantasy shelves of the now long-defunct Borders, and met up every few weeks to eat take-away and rewatch episodes of Buffy and Angel in her student accommodation; she's the person who made my default icon, using character art drawn by [instagram.com profile] sophia.mcdougall), and Sunshine is probably my biggest (in the sense of most other people actually interested in reading and writing fic) fandom, even though it's Yuletide-only!

    And yes, another thing that came through very strongly in the podcast is how incomplete the book feels — the worldbuilding is both sparse but abundant, with so many threads picked up and then never mentioned again — which is what makes it such a rich fanfic seam to mine.

    All this is a convoluted way of saying that if you are part of the Sunshine renaissance, I have written fic for this fandom. But my favourite Sunshine fic of all, and which I wish I'd come up with myself (but never would have, because I can't write that character), is this one:

    under our skins (1190 words) by Wildcard
    Chapters: 1/1
    Fandom: Sunshine - Robin McKinley
    Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
    Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
    Characters: Mel (Sunshine)
    Additional Tags: POV Outsider, Worldbuilding, Prequel, Magical Tattoos
    Summary:

    Mel during the Wars, told through the eyes of a tattoo artist.



    Also via [personal profile] renay's newsletter, this perceptive, bittersweet piece about the slow, sad demise of what I have always thought of as the 'do it yourself internet.' (Spoiler alert: it's the AI and other tech companies' fault.)

    How's everyone been these past few weeks?
    dolorosa_12: (summer sunglasses)
    This is definitely a post in brief — my mum's visit has taken up most of my time, and the rolling heatwaves have taken the remainder of my energy.

    Over two days last week, my mum and I walked another two stretches of the Thames Path — Wallingford to Abingdon, and then Abingdon to Oxford. Altogether, once you add in the walking we did within Oxford, and then in London on our return journey, it amounts to nearly 40km in two days. My mum is 77 years old, and I can only hope that I have even half her energy and stamina at that age!

    Here's a photoset from the walk, and here's another from the several hours we spent relaxing in the Oxford Botanic Garden (which as a His Dark Materials fan I have of course visited several times previously, with various configurations of Philip Pullman fansite friends in tow, although not since 2010). Everything was sunny, bucolic, and interwoven with the green Thames, unfurling like a ribbon across the landscape.

    We got a new train station, and its existence makes my commute — and therefore my life — a whole lot more pleasant. The Guardian wrote a sort of travel puff piece about it, complete with tourist guide to less well trodden parts of Cambridge.

    It's been just over ten years since I became a UK citizen, and I wrote about the complicated feelings that citizenship sparked, right from the moment I received it, on the occasion of receiving my new UK passport a few days ago.

    That's all of note for now.
    dolorosa_12: (summer sunglasses)
    This weekend was the summer solstice, and it's been sun-drenched, and bakingly hot. Our house isn't designed for such temperatures (our bedroom was 27 degrees last night when I was trying to sleep), but I've been coping the best I can. I bought a bunch of sunflowers, and another bunch of wildflowers, and filled the living room with colour. I've got two separate jugs of infused tap water chilling in the fridge (replacing the water every time I drink a glass): one with strawberry tops and mint from the garden, the other with cucumber and mint. The garden itself is a jungle of fresh herbs — bolting dill, giant flatleaf parsley, chaotic mint — with cucumber and tomato and radishes pushing their way up in between.

    My two hours of classes in the gym were a challenge yesterday, after two weeks away, but the pool this morning was a dream, and a relief to plunge into the cold water for twenty-five minutes. I'm subsisting on infused water, iced coffee, and fresh strawberries.

    Matthias went into London yesterday to watch the cricket with a friend of ours, and stayed overnight, but he's back now, and we're both vegetating in the house (him next to a whirring fan) and doing our best to keep cool. I'm really not looking forward to commuting back and forth to work next week, but at least my actual office is air-conditioned.

    I haven't read much of note recently, apart from Vikram Seth's incredible family/historical saga (1500 pages long!), A Suitable Boy, which I picked up on the train out to Amsterdam and just finished this afternoon. Although I'd obviously heard of it, my mum was the one who inspired me to actually read it, having been put on to it herself by one of her closest friends (who incidentally was my editor during the ten years I worked as a professional newspaper book-reviewer, because Canberra is Like That, and the Australian media landscape is also Like That), who had read it and raved about it. Now my sister is also listening to the audiobook, and loving that as well.

    The frame of this brick of a book is the eventual marriage (and choice of husband) of Lata, a young woman in newly independent India — the novel opens at her older sister's wedding with their mother, one daughter successfully married off, immediately turning her matchmaking attention to the next one — but it's also about their extended family and social circle as a whole, and about the newly independent Indian state. Chapters deal in turn with religions and religious practice, class and caste and economic relations, infrastructure, academia, post-partition tensions with the newly independent state of Pakistan, land rights, and more, and Seth deals equally deftly with fractious family meals, parliamentary debates, pompous faculty board meetings, and emotionally wrenching sectarian violence, and treats all with equal weight and sensitivity. It shows — through zooming in on this one fictional family and then zooming out at various points — newly independent India, and its citizens grappling with what they want their independent nation to look like. It resembles Jane Austen at times, and at others Dickens, and in other moments seems positively Shakespearean, but it's really its own unbelievably accomplished thing, all the more impressive due to Seth's ability to sustain everything for 1500 pages. At times, it skewers its own pretensions with self-aware self-deprecation, and there's a particular scene involving a poetry reading and audience Q&A that had me howling with laughter and which felt obviously inspired by many real-world literary events experienced by the author. The last 10 per cent was an absolutely wild ride, at turns melodramatic and tragic, culminating — as promised from the opening pages and in the traditions of all its various literary inspirations — with a massive wedding. Honestly, I'm in awe.
    dolorosa_12: (writing notebook)
    The tab situation is getting ridiculous on my browser (by my standards; I have about 16 tabs open, which is beyond the point that I start to get stressed out — I have no idea how some of you can cope with hundreds of open tabs), so I thought I'd do a linkpost and start closing some of them!

    I loved this roundtable discussion on Ancillary Review of Books about reviewing and criticism — they covered their respective approaches to these things, and their thoughts on the state of the discipline in SFF specifically.

    This article in the Guardian about the 'rise of consumer rage' is focused on the US, but definitely feels more widely applicable.

    I can't say that the British royal family occupy that much of my headspace, but I have had this absolutely brilliant Andrew O'Hagan review of both Virginia Giuffre's memoir and a nonfiction book about the 'House of York' bookmarked since March, and feel it's well worth a read. It's one of those kinds of reviews that's more like an essay, where not a single word is out of place, and every sentence twists the knife further. Content warning for discussion of sexual abuse, of course.

    I'd never heard of this this Australian conwoman, even though she was active during the years of my early adulthood, and many of the places featured in the linked deep dive article are incredibly familiar to me, including the rather disreputable Irish pub which features heavily in her story (and which was the place where a university friend met her now ex-husband).

    My mum went to this exhibition at the Australian National Gallery a few months ago, and I've had the linked bookmarked since, even though I'm not going to make it there myself — I'm just in awe at the artwork.

    I don't have a Bluesky account, but I've followed the Angry People in Local Newspapers group on Facebook for many, many years now, and this absolute classic of the genre just crossed my feed, and caused fits of laughter. I thought it better to share the Bluesky version of the post rather than FB, since it's probably easier to view without an account (indeed, as I myself don't have an account, I can confirm that it's viewable without one).

    And that's cleared up my browser very nicely!
    dolorosa_12: (coffee)
    Friday open threads are back for now, and this week's one is inspired by a great Shetland fanfic I read recently. It's wonderful for many, many reasons, but one thing that I particularly enjoyed was its incredible specificity of place: having been to Shetland myself, it was like walking around Lerwick again. The crowning glory: it even managed to work in a reference to a specific waterfront cafe which (in my opinion) has the best coffee in town.

    Link to the fic behind the cut if you want to read it )

    So, here is this week's prompt: what is your favourite tiny real-world detail in a work of fiction (original or transformative) that makes it clear the author has genuine experience of the place being depicted?
    dolorosa_12: (persephone lore olympus)
    I've returned from a week away in Amsterdam, which I visited with my mum. The two of us were last there together in the winter of 2005 (although I've been back since, mainly to change trains en route to Matthias's family in Germany), and it was great to revisit the same places in the sunshine — and discover the city, much changed.

    I kept a haphazard paper journal throughout the week, and will transcribe it behind the cut.

    Canals like the veins of a city )

    I've put up two photosets over at [instagram.com profile] ronnidolorosa: a general Amsterdam batch, and a collection of cats.

    The less said about the chaotic journey home the better (suffice it to say that I made it onto my Eurostar train in Brussels with twenty minutes to spare), but I returned to a fully stocked fridge (so many strawberries and tomatoes!), a bottle of pink sparkling wine, and an incredibly lush garden.

    I'm only peripherally engaged with the men's World Cup, but I accidentally stumbled into a very Balkans corner of Instagram, and discovered the absolute banger that is the Bosnian team anthem (a thirteen-year-old song about the bittersweet experience of being an immigrant, reworked by the surprised and ecstatic fans into an anthem for their team). It's so catchy, and the video is gold!



    Now to catch up with ten days' worth of Dreamwidth!
    dolorosa_12: (summer sunglasses)
    I just came back from an incredibly frustrating and stressful swim at the pool — so much so that I had to bow out after 750 metres rather than my usual 1km. However, my walk home featured not one, but two cats that wandered up to me and wanted to be stroked and snuggled, which did a lot to restore my mood!

    It's a long weekend, and it's been absolutely baking. The temperature gauge in our bedroom said it was 27C last night when I was trying to get to sleep, and it's meant to be 32C today — pretty extreme given it's still May! I've coped with this in the usual way: chilled infused water in the fridge, lots of ice cubes and frozen grapes in the freezer, salads for lunch (using chives and bitter salad greens grown in the garden!), avoiding leaving the house for much other than swimming and buying iced coffee at the bakery down the road. While confined indoors, we did at least manage to book our accommodation for our holiday in September, which always feels very satisfying and efficient.

    Yesterday's swim was flawless: sun shining on the water, not a single other person in the lane for the entire 40 laps, and I just glided up and down the lane in pure, uncomplicated happiness, boundless in an unbounded world. It took me only 22 minutes to swim the entire kilometre. Today was pretty much the polar opposite. I'd seen when booking that only half the pool was going to be available to lap swimmers at the time I'd booked, but in that past when that's happened it's meant there is one fast lane, one medium lane, and one slow lane, and then the other half of the pool given over to lessons or free swimming. This time, two lanes were for lessons, two lanes were for free swimming, and then they'd widened the remainder into a double lane for medium speed lap swimmers, and another double lane for slow swimmers. Both were full with a scrum of people swimming up and down with almost no space in between each pair of swimmers. No fast lane at all. I attempted to swim up and down in the middle of the medium lane in between the other swimmers, but I was so much faster than everyone else that I basically overtook every single other swimmer every two lengths. Almost all of them were doing breaststroke, and I was kicked and hit repeatedly, including in the head and face, and including by someone wearing hand flipper things, which drew blood on my arm. I was so stressed that in the end I gave up. I could have been seriously injured.

    I didn't expect them to rearrange the whole layout of the pool for one faster swimmer, but I do think it needed to be made clearer on the bookings website when 'half pool' specifically meant 'no fast lane,' and I'll be writing to the company that manages the sports centre and saying so!

    Other than exercise (I also went to my two fitness classes, and I've been doing very slow, stretchy yoga classes in the shadiest part of the house), I've basically just been lounging around the house, reading, cooking, and eating.

    I finished up Sister Wake (Dave Rudden), a standalone secondary world fantasy novel which essentially compresses 900 years of English colonisation of Ireland into 300. In the book, the Croí (the analogue for the Irish people) rise against their colonial rulers, against a chaotic backdrop in which the gods and supernatural beings of Irish mythology have burst forth to walk the island once more: gigantic, angry, animal-formed embodiments of sovereignty impossible to control and impossible to reason with. The book was packed with allusions to Lebor Gabála Érenn and other medieval pseudohistorical texts that I studied as part of my PhD, which I enjoyed immensely (I also enjoyed the fact that Rudden's use of Irish made semantic and grammatical sense, which is not always a given when authors decide to sprinkle it into their fantasy settings), but overall I struggled to get on with this book, for reasons on which I'm not entirely clear.

    Yesterday, I gulped down Sunburn (Chloe Michell Howarth), an Irish novel of a very different kind. This is a coming-of-age story, set in a claustrophobically tiny rural Irish town (population around 300) in the early 1990s, with a teenage girl narrator who embarks on an all-consuming secret relationship with another girl from her friendship group. In the conservative environment of the village, any deviation from the expected path of graduation from secondary school, serious heterosexual relationship with another young person from the village, marriage, and stay-at-home motherhood is so outside the realms of possibility that it's not even contemplated, and Howarth's novel captures perfectly how horrific it is to be closeted in such a setting. It's the kind of story that brings the experience of adolescence crashing painfully back into focus: the repetitive limits of the world (school, home, chip shop, corner shop), the intense internal focus and (justified) sense that all your peers are observing and documenting your life, appearance, choice of clothes, and faults with journalistic rigour (as indeed you are doing of them), the anguish of every tiny thing taking on a significance of epic, life-altering proportions. Those more universal sensations take place in an exquisitely specific temporal and physical space, and Howarth's portrayal of this slice of her characters' lives is the richer for it. I thought this was fantastically done: earnest, painful, and rich.

    (My one issue with the book was its choice to render dialogue like this:
    'Blah blah blah.'
    He says.

    'More dialogue.'
    Says Susannah.

    And so on, always with that full stop and line break. It was wildly distracting.)

    I'm now about one hundred pages in to A Treachery of Swans (A.B. Poranek), with low expectations, and much trepidation. It's a Swan Lake retelling, and I've already been primed by [personal profile] chestnut_pod and others that it's not great!

    Other than books, Matthias and I watched Sirat last night: a meandering, melancholy road trip by a Spanish father and his young son through the deserts of Morocco, accompanied by a quintet of quirky ravers en route to their next rave, where the Spanish pair hope they'll find their lost daughter/sister. This is not a feel-good roadtrip movie — there are a couple of truly horrific, shocking moments — and it reminded me very strongly of medieval voyage tales, in which saints, or figures otherwise rendered outside of society (criminals, outlaws, etc) embark on journeys that are part free roaming, part panicked flight from their problems, and very soon find themselves in strange, supernatural environs outside the ordinary human world, and the whole thing becomes a sort of psychological metaphor for the spiritual journey of the soul. There's nothing so redemptive in Sirat, but it's that same kind of wasteland wandering, through bleak, empty deserts fringed by spectacular mountains (with an incredible techno soundtrack), all the characters in search of something that none are fully able to put to words.

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