I've actually been kind of exploring this in a just-for-fun writing side project I have going - if, instead of sacrificing my big dream of pursuing acting in order to care for my brothers, I'd left them and gone to the performing arts high school all my friends went to. I don't know if there was a career for me in acting - my last director told me there wasn't, because I wasn't pretty enough to be a lead or funny-looking enough to be a character actress - but on a personal level, if I'd lived a life in which the biggest trauma of my life didn't happen, if I'd been less isolated and lonely, if I'd had the opportunity to develop my own confidence and self-reliance before people took advantage of my vulnerabilities, I think a lot of things would have turned out very, very differently. It's hard to say where I'd be; possibly I'd have emigrated earlier, or possibly I'd still be trying to. Possibly I'd have a stable career, possibly I'd be just as precarious in another field of work. I really think I'd just be a completely different person, and it's hard for me to even imagine where that person's life would've led them.