Beyond Selidor

I think it is better to call it a temporary equilibrium. I made a post a few years ago that I must have deleted because I can't find it in my archive of very sporadic posting since 2015, but it was basically to the effect that intellectually, I'm very well aware that humans are social creatures and it's to my detriment not to maintain local relationships. It has real consequences for the immune system and also for ones mental state (oxytocin feedback loop) not to.

However, intellectually I know a lot of things I don't act on (like that exercise is good for me). So I remain in this holding pattern, very aware that it is not more than that. But I also think as long as I'm aware that I'm just getting comfortable in limbo, not all is lost. And as I said, the whole thing needs a reset anyway once I move.