Inertia creeps
Jun. 7th, 2020 02:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dolorosa_12This has not been a good weekend, nor a good week. I've felt weighed down with inaction, and a severe lack of motivation. I feel as if I've done the bare minimum in all aspects of my life. There's been too much doomscrolling, and not enough ... anything, really. I'm hoping I can somehow reset myself on Monday.
In the meantime, I've given myself permission to have a sort of wallowy weekend. I reread books that felt nurturing in some way (Zen Cho's backlist is excellent for this: The Perilous Life of Jade Yeo is just delightful, and I'm now rereading Sorcerer to the Crown; I just love the way she writes her heroines: so assertive and practical and self-assured), I cooked recipes that filled the house with delicious smells (you're always off to a good start when the recipe begins take two entire heads of garlic, cut them in half horizontally, and put everything in a roasting tray), and aside from going to the shops and a brief walk around the nature reserve this morning, I haven't left the house.
I still don't feel in a great place mentally, but I think I have at least staved off a much worse downward mood swing. I guess that's the best that can be expected at the moment.
In the meantime, I've given myself permission to have a sort of wallowy weekend. I reread books that felt nurturing in some way (Zen Cho's backlist is excellent for this: The Perilous Life of Jade Yeo is just delightful, and I'm now rereading Sorcerer to the Crown; I just love the way she writes her heroines: so assertive and practical and self-assured), I cooked recipes that filled the house with delicious smells (you're always off to a good start when the recipe begins take two entire heads of garlic, cut them in half horizontally, and put everything in a roasting tray), and aside from going to the shops and a brief walk around the nature reserve this morning, I haven't left the house.
I still don't feel in a great place mentally, but I think I have at least staved off a much worse downward mood swing. I guess that's the best that can be expected at the moment.
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Date: 2020-06-07 02:38 pm (UTC)There's been too much doomscrolling, and not enough ... anything, really.
Yeah. That's where I'm at. It's not great.
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Date: 2020-06-07 04:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-06-07 04:51 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2020-06-07 05:28 pm (UTC)I think that's right where a lot of us are right now and the value of self-care is not to be underestimated.
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Date: 2020-06-07 05:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-06-08 08:50 am (UTC)Though, yes, good books also help.
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Date: 2020-06-08 11:05 am (UTC)Books definitely help, but they need to be the right kind of books, otherwise it's impossible to focus.