dolorosa_12: (fever ray)
I feel as if I've barely been around these parts recently — I think it's been close to a week since I logged into Dreamwidth, and there are an overwhelming number of posts to catch up with. Luckily, I've been very productive this weekend, and after writing this post I've essentially got the entire afternoon free, so I can dive into my feed and see what you've all been up to.

I've got a couple of short stories, two films, and a book to log in terms of stuff read/watched since I last posted.

The short stories were from one of the recent issues of Beneath Ceaseless Skies, and as always I found myself impressed at the editorial choice to group things together that fit well thematically. Both the stories were about the experiences of people coming to terms with the colonisation of their lands and communities, and trying to navigate this traumatic situation without much recourse to power.

'Our Grandmother's Words' (M.H. Ayinde) is a story in which the colonial erasure of language and culture is made starkly literal: the colonists possess the ability to rob locals of their words, including the ability to say no, or to advocate for fair trading conditions. But it's also a story about the power of language and memory and culture to survive and resist.

'Your Great Mother Across the Salt Sea' (Kelsey Hutton) is a story in which a woman from a colonised nation finds herself thrown into the role of ambassador for her people at the court of the colonising country, and she has to navigate this fraught environment using the skills and abilities she possesses, pleading the case of her people to indifferent, uncomprehending ears.

I would have to say that neither story is particularly subtle!

I've just finished reading Book of Night, Holly Black's adult fiction debut. I had thought it was a stand-alone, but it's actually the first in a trilogy in a fantasy version of our own world in which magic exists, but is not equally distributed. Some people have the ability to separate themselves from their shadows, possess other people, and force them to do their will. Black's favourite themes and character dynamics are all on display here — she loves scammers, tricksters, con artists and elaborate supernatural heists, and relationships between characters who are lying to each other and themselves. She likes to write stories about people living on the margins, in the interstitial places, eking out a living throught their ability to read people, lie convincingly, and run successful scams, but always with a slight sense of desperation, as if they know their luck may run out at any moment. She has a couple of irritating stylistic tics that I find very grating (constantly name dropping brands; her protagnist never gets into her car, but always 'her Corolla,' she sends her sister not to the chemist/pharmacy, but 'to Walgreens,' and so on), but I've read enough Holly Black books by now to know that she and I share an id (in particuar when it comes to relationship and character dynamics) so I grit my teeth and put up with it.

On Thursday night, Matthias and I saw a film at the community cinema — Ynys Men, an unsettling, nightmarish film set on an isolated Cornish island in the 1970s. There's very little dialogue, and we observe a middle-aged woman engage in repetitive, ritualistic daily routines. As these routines cycle around, strange memories and historical moments start to intrude, and the audience's grip on reality becomes more and more tenuous. It's as if the island is haunted by the memories of its previous inhabitants, and the blasted landscape of ruined buildings, decaying mines, and weathered standing stones adds to the eerie atmosphere. The film's use of sound, in particular, is excellent.

Last night, we watched the Luther film, which has just been added to Netflix this week. In it, the titular police officer (played by Idris Elba) stalks his way through a labyrinthine, dystopian London, hunting a serial killer whose cruelty is particularly theatrical and comic-bookish, even by the standards of this show. We're missing the character of Alice, who in the TV series was played with amoral aplomb by Ruth Wilson and was a fabulous foil for Luther, and the film does suffer from her absence, but if you liked the show, you'll probably like the film. I'm on record as absolutely detesting any work of fiction that suggests that some criminals or terrorists are so vile and evil that stopping them means abandoning correct police procedure and stooping to their level (the Nolan Batman films are a particularly hated example of this for me), and that is of course the central premise of the Luther series, so I guess it's my one exception. I suppose it helps that a) the rule-breaking police officer is played with such presence and charisma by Idris Elba (it really is his best role) and b) his slow slide (and then speed run) towards damnation is shown to utterly destroy him as a person, until he's hollowed out, nothing but a dramatic swooshy coat and a death wish. But his methods are vindicated in that they're shown in the show (and film) to work, and implied to be the only thing that would work in such circumstances, which makes me uneasy, although Luther is hardly the only crime drama to make this particular argument. It helps, I guess, to view the whole thing as a setting-change and no-superpowers Batman AU.

In addition to reading and films, I've finished the first draft of my [community profile] once_upon_fic assignment, gone to the gym twice for swimming, and for fitness classes, wandered along the river with Matthias, and done a bunch of cooking (including multiple recipes from [instagram.com profile] sami_tamimi's Palestinian cookbook). Compared to how I was feeling for much of the past six weeks, it's a change very much for the better. I feel like the vegetable seedlings growing in the kitchen — emerging from the dark earth, into the light.
dolorosa_12: (startorial)
This month has been a bumper one for TV viewing, with some really excellent shows in a variety of genres. And, given the shows I've got on the go currently, this looks set to continue in December. The shows we finished this month are as follows:

Trøm, a Scandi noir set in the Faroe islands, partially in Faroese. The mystery centres on the murder of a young anti-whaling activist, and draws heavily on local tensions between industry and activists, as well as on tensions within and between various families. It's a pretty conventional crime drama, and the characters verge on stock characters — the appeal here is the setting and the language, rather than anything groundbreaking in terms of the story.

Industry, a drama which Matthias describes as a blend between Skins and Billions: beautiful young people doing terrible things as they attempt to succeed in London's financial services industry. There's constant backstabbing and double crossing, everyone uses each other, and everyone handles eye-watering amounts of money while slowly dying inside. This is not a show to watch if you want a story about good and kind-hearted people.

Babylon Berlin, the fourth season of an amazing German noir show set in the dying years of the Weimar Republic. This is at this point a candidate for my show of the year, and I was so impressed by the latest season that I wrote a longer review over at [wordpress.com profile] dolorosa12, my longform reviews blog.

Trainwreck, a three-part documentary on the ill-fated Woodstock '99 festival. I was dimly aware of the existence of the festival after the fact, but although I was a teenager in 1999, I had no idea of its existence at the time it was happening. The story of the festival is a familiar mixture of ineptitude, hubris, arrogance, and sheer destructive selfishness and — much like Dashcon or Fyre Festival — the sort of slow-motion car crash you watch in horror from between your fingers.

Andor, the latest Disney+ Star Wars show, impressed me immensely. It's an impeccably cast, impeccably shot, impeccably written blend of spy thriller and political drama — the story of how small actions of individuals and groups can both inadvertently and deliberately create an anti-fascist resistance movement, while at the same time showing how slowly and easily authoritarian oppression can take hold and worm its way into everything until the point that it's impossible to stop without violent, organised resistance. I thought it was fantastic.

The English is a western set in the late 19th century, in which an English woman mourning the death of her son and a Native tracker finished with an adult lifetime spent as a tracker for the US army join forces on their respective revenge quests, which end up being interwoven. What it reminded me most of was, weirdly, medieval chivalric literature, especially Malory — the characters wander through landscapes charged with meaning, encountering a variety of strange figures (many of whom pop in and out of the story) who require their help, or bring violence to them. The show was gorgeous to look at, made some clever points (mainly — as is to be expected — about colonisation), and had a deep sense of grief and melancholy.

And those are the shows I've completed this month.
dolorosa_12: (fever ray)
It's boiling hot, I'm already half in holiday mode (although I have two more days of work left before going on leave), and I've just read a book which made such baffling narrative decisions that I think I'm going to have to write a separate post about it.

Let's answer the penultimate two fandom meme questions.

Days 17-18 )

The other days )
dolorosa_12: (dolorosa)
Thank you all so much for your comments on my last post. They are in large part responsible for my vastly improved mood this weekend.

Other good things:

  • Cooking

  • Helping Matthias assemble our new exercise bike, and using it to work out for a bit today

  • Buying lots of novellas (new Aliette de Bodard! The novellas by Zen Cho and Nghi Vo that I'd been putting off buying due to the cost!) and other nice things online

  • Crepes for breakfast, and fresh flowers in the living room

  • Watching the rain fall on the windows


  • I also come bearing (music-related) links: one newspaper interview, one new-to-me song, and one old song that I remembered last night.

    As you may recall, I love Massive Attack inordinately. I therefore very much enjoyed this interview in The Guardian with Robert Del Naja, in which he says a lot of stuff that I agree with about the dangers of uncritical nostalgia:

    'Certain groups attempted to engineer a culture war and divide opinion to keep us distracted from the fact that even though a few statues have been removed [in the wake of BLM protests], they’re still in power and it still isn’t working. Their version of the world is a failure and it’s their ghosts that are being exorcised.'

    Matthias put me on to this fantastic song. The video clip feels very early 2000s Massive Attack, in fact. (Warning for lots of visuals of body horror, surgical implements, and eye trauma.)



    For some reason, this led (via some Youtube segueing) to this song:



    And so on I go.
    dolorosa_12: (grimes janelle)
    Just a short post with two videos to start off the weekend.

    Via a recent roundup of fanworks on [community profile] ladybusiness, I came across this fanvid from a couple of years ago by [personal profile] runawaynun. It's called 'Stamina' and is a compilation of different women competing in different sports across the ages.

    Watch it here.

    As a former gymnast, all of the gymnasts in the video were familiar to me (although I would really quibble with including Kerri Strug's vault which won the US women's team the gold medal in Atlanta in a compilation of triumphant moments in women's sport; my opinion of that situation is basically, fuck the Károlyis), and the whole thing is just really well put together, and made me quite weepy.

    The last concert I was able to attend was a fantastic weird little gig in a former metalworks turned goth club in Islington, in December last year. It was very much to my taste: just me, Matthias, and a handful of aging goths being screamed at by a tiny Swedish woman dressed in sunglasses and pleather. One of the songs she played has now been released as a single, and I have been playing it a lot today.



    Courage, courage, courage.
    dolorosa_12: (florence glitter)
    It may only be February, but I think I may have already found my contender for best new-to-me musical discovery of the year: Promenade Cinéma.

    Their whole first album is about being haunted by ghostly apparitions in obsolete media (and I guess by memory more generally). It's beautiful and creepy and dark and ethereal all at once.



    I highly recommend the entire album. It's so gloriously, gorgeously '80s.
    dolorosa_12: (Default)
    So, here we are at the close of yet another year. My country of origin is on literal and figurative fire, my chosen home country at the moment is on the figurative cliff edge, ready to dive off on 31 January, and generally the state of the world is not good. This is, therefore, yet another year of great personal and professional success for me, which took place against a backdrop of apocalyptic collapse.

    So I guess it's time for the year's end meme?

    Questions and answers behind the cut )
    dolorosa_12: (startorial)
    Massive Attack was everything I could have hoped for and more. I'm not, generally, someone who gets overwhelmed with the experience of live music, but there are rare exceptions, and this was one of them. I didn't quite realise how emotional it would make me, to see the album that I've loved so much since I was a teenager, in awe at its wordplay and dark bass and vocals both soaring and cthonic, brought to life. To hear those words, that have been at once formative foundation and the armour in which I've wrapped myself for more than twenty years, sung aloud. I was lost the minute I walked out into the Tube station and saw this (as I said to Matthias, it's moments like this that I love London, that ridiculous city). And then they sang my favourite song of all time: not just my favourite Massive Attack song, but my favourite song by any artist. I've heard Robert Del Naja whisper-growl we can unwind/ all these half flaws, and it's making up for two decades of concert regrets.

    (Two links that probably sum up the concert very well — a review of the show, and an interview with the band.)

    We stayed overnight in London after the concert — leaving the O2 to dense, atmospheric fog which somehow felt perfectly in keeping with the mood evoked by the music, and which was still around on Saturday morning, shrouding the post-apocalyptic wasteland which is Canning Town at 7am with a vaguely Luther-ish air. After a quick breakfast in one of my favourite Bloomsbury cafes (oh, London coffee), we wandered up to the British Museum, joining the thronging crowds on the penultimate day of an exhibition on Ashurbanipal, who was an Assyrian ruler. If the self-aggrandising quotes from his letters are to be believed he seemed rather like a more competent version of the menace currently President of the US — he won the vastest empire through battles, he solved all the complicated mathematic problems, sages and soothsayers contacted him for his predictions of the future, and so on. I was mainly struck by how much material had survived — so many letters and stories and tax records on clay tablets, so many incredible carved decorative stones, and so on. As most of this material comes from very dangerous parts of the world (mainly modern-day Iraq and Syria), there is great concern for its safety, and the final room of the exhibition had a video with interviews with Iraqi archaeologists, who had worked on the exhibition and who had been trained by the British Museum in 'disaster archaeology' (i.e. working in high-risk areas with materials that are under threat), and these archaeologists are currently excavating new sites in the region, with the aim that the materials unearthed will remain in Iraq. They were all very passionate about this work, but it sounds at once very dangerous, and a race against time.

    I had grand plans today for writing book reviews, and a letter for [community profile] waybackexchange, but other than a bit of pottering around in the garden (we now should hopefully have home-grown zucchini and radishes in a few months' time) and reading a KJ Charles book in the sun, I've failed dismally to have a productive Sunday.

    At least I seem to have got my reading groove back. I read Tara Westover's memoir Educated on the train to and from London, which, given how much of it involves studying at Cambridge (indeed, Westover was a friend of one of my Cambridge friends during her time there), seemed fitting. She's obviously lived a very interesting life — brought up as the daughter of fundamentalist Mormons who spent most of her childhood as Doomsday survivalists, completely neglecting her education, and raising her and her siblings in a wholly abusive environment, self-educating herself to the point that she could go to university, and then ending up a PhD student at Cambridge — and if I wished that she would condemn her parents in stronger terms, that probably says more about me than it does about her.

    I also read a handful of Tor.com free short stories — three on the basis of recommendations from [personal profile] eglantiere ('What Mario Scietto Says' by Emmy Laybourne, 'Cold Wind' by Nicola Griffith, and 'The Tallest Doll in New York City' by Maria Dahvana Headley), and one of the basis of a review by Amal El-Mohtar ('A Dead Djinn in Cairo' by P. Djèlí Clark). I liked them all except the Laybourne, which, given that its point-of-view character is a survivalist prepper experiencing an apocalypse, and given what I said above about the Westover book, was never going to work for me. I really find it hard to engage with a narrative that expects me to sympathise with survivalists, or which implies that they were right to prep for the apocalypse.

    Matthias and I also found time last night to finish off the fifth season of Luther, which didn't work for me for a variety of reasons, the main one being that I felt the writers lost their sense of the characters, who all behaved in ways which were for me widely out of character. I'm not sure if there'll be another season, and I'm not sure if some of the writing decisions made in this one are salvageable, but in any case I was not particularly impressed.

    How has everyone been enjoying their weekends?
    dolorosa_12: (emily hanna)
    The 'Aims Project' is a multifandom vid album, in which each participant has made a fanvid using the music of one song from Vienna Teng's Aims album. Each vid is astoundingly lovely.

    I was recently alerted to the existence of 'We Are Sansa Stark', an old essay on Pornokitsch. I don't agree with every one of its conclusions - particularly that Sansa is definitely going to end up a major political player in the series - nor do I think it's helpful to criticise fandom for pitting Sansa and Arya against each other and then...do the same. But I love Sansa and characters like her, and sometimes it's just nice to see them get a bit of love.

    This post by [tumblr.com profile] anneursu takes all the sneering critics of YA literature to task, and does so excellently. Read the whole thing.

    'When Gods and Vampires Roamed Miami' is a short story by Kendare Blake published on Tor.com. It's set in the world of her Goddess Wars series (which I hadn't heard of but then promptly reserved at the library), and is set in a mid-'90s Miami crawling with gods and goddesses, and Lost Boys-inspired vampire wannabes.

    I'm a massive fan of this animated credits to Buffy the Vampire Slayer by Stephen Byrne.

    While we wait impatiently for Ancillary Sword, Orbit has put an excerpt from the first chapter up on its website.

    This Massive Attack retrospective sums up all my overwhelming feelings of love for this band:

    British trip hop pioneers Massive Attack are one of the most celebrated acts in the history of electronic music. Their atmospheric take on hip hop and R&B, with elements of soul, funk, jazz and electronica, was an exciting new sound in the late ’80s and early ’90s. They pioneered the genre now known as trip hop and quickly became hugely influential all around the world. Few electronic acts are held in such high regard as the Bristol-bred outfit. If they had never released their five studio albums, some of today’s great artists may never have gone down the musical paths they chose. Massive Attack are more than a band, they made us rethink how music can be created, and redefined what a band could be.

    I still haven't got my copy of Unmade by [livejournal.com profile] sarahtales (Sarah Rees Brennan) and thus can't participate in all the revelry, but she has some great fanart up on her blog, as well as the schedule for her blog tour. I'll be checking out all those posts once I've got around to reading the book.

    'I Don't Know How But I Know I Will' is an 8tracks mix by angrygirlsquad 'for those days where you see no way through. you haven’t failed. you are alive. everything else is bonus'.

    I hope you are all feeling loved by the people you love, flist.

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