dolorosa_12: (babylon berlin dancing feet)
This weekend has been a very welcome chance to catch my breath, after weeks of intense work, travel, and a lingering sense that I'd been trying to cram too many responsibilities into too little time. I feel physically and mentally rested for the first time in ages.

Of course, 'catching my breath' in my context still means that I went out three times to the market in the past two days, plus three times to the gym (or rather, two times to the gym and one time to the cinema which is in the same complex), did two loads of laundry, batch-cooked a bunch of stuff, and spent most of this morning doing little bits and pieces in the garden, so I haven't exactly been spending the weekend lounging around on the couch. I never want inactivity — I just want to feel that all this stuff fits easily into the time I have available.

Yesterday afternoon, Matthias and I did the time-honoured Australian hot weather activity of decamping to the air conditioned comfort of the cinema, and watched Sinners. This is probably the first time in a year I've seen a film in a cinema, and it was well worth it! It's been a while since I've seen a movie that works so perfectly on all levels — narrative, acting, visual and aural storytelling, and the seamless interweaving thereof — and this was an absolute feast for the senses. There's so much going on: it's a story about Black American history, culture, and music, it's about cultural appropriation (particularly of Black music of all genres), and of the tenacity of Black people throughout the entirety of their presence on the American continents in building and creating and clawing their way to success and prosperity in the face of the full force of racism that will impede them every step of the way, and tear down everything they've built whenever possible, with zero consequences. In particular, it's about the immense trauma at the heart of the Black experience in the United States — on both an individual and communal level — of the rupture of slavery, and the way it robbed the descendents of the enslaved of knowledge of their history, and the way that, in spite of that, there is this incredible cultural continuity, particularly when it comes to music, that transcends and survives this traumatic rupture, resulting in this most exquisite music, from whose roots pretty much every popular musical genre has sprung. (And of course, all this exquisite musical talent and innovation has been plundered and whitewashed by non-Black musicians ever since mass entertainment became a thing, a point which the film weaves throughout its narrative.)

It's also a vampire horror movie.

There were some scenes that I can't describe without spoiling what really should be seen unspoilt, but which were so visually striking and emotionally arresting that they took my breath away. The music is incredible, and made me want to dance in the cinema. In other words, I was immersed and entranced, and it took away my cynicism about film as a storytelling medium (which, after a big dose of franchise/reboot/blockbuster fatigue, had been pretty high).

Other than movies, I've been slowly reading through the only kind of reading material I can handle at the moment: Consort of Fire (Kit Rocha), an undemanding, tropey romantasy that feels like the equivalent of junk food for the brain.

Beyond that, it's been a weekend of gardening. Last year, I planted an sweet pea seedling, which grew absolutely gigantic, and was laden with flowers of varying shades of pink and purple. It made me so happy, I was planning to get another seedling this year — until I went out to the vegetable patches and realised I didn't have to, as about five new sweet pea plants had self-seeded from last year's. I spent a bit of time this morning constructing frames from bamboo, and training the new seedlings to the frames so they'll grow upwards. I also planted a bunch of seeds in propagator trays: radishes, chili, spring onion, rocket, dill, parsley, chives, peas, marigolds, and nasturtiums. It really is too late for all this — see above for how rushed and lacking in time I've felt for weeks on end — so I'm philosophical about how successful any of these potential plants is likely to be. If anything sprouts and grows, I'll count that as a success. Benign neglect seems to be the route to success in our garden — without having planted any, we have masses of strawberry plants (including one that self-seeded in the cracks between two paving slabs in the patio), a bunch of supposedly dead foxgloves in the front garden suddenly revived (these are not meant to be perennials) and covered themselves with budding flowers, and the unkillable mint died back as it always did in winter, and sprang to life in spring, filling the entire herb garden. The wood pigeons have, as always, stripped half the leaves and unripe fruit from one of the cherry trees, but in a month or so, there should be a veritable feast of pinkish-white cherries nonetheless.

It's nice to have had a good stretch of time to devote to Dreamwidth this afternoon. I've missed this place.
dolorosa_12: (garden pond)
This past weekend was a long weekend in England, and Matthias and I went down to Devon to visit our friends C and L, and their two small daughters (aged four and six). We've been friends for a very long time; Matthias and L were best men at each other's respective weddings, and Matthias is godfather to their older daughter, but for various reasons, we haven't seen each other in person for a very long time. Thankfully, things worked out, such that we were able to stay with them from Friday evening until Monday afternoon.

It was a lovely few days. The weather cooperated (not always a given in that part of the world), and we spent a lot of time wandering around in pretty National Trust gardens, fruitlessly assisting the daughters as they waved a metal detector over the sand at a beach (although they had more luck filling buckets with shells), and answering endless questions that started with the word 'why'. It's actually relatively easy to find activities that suit both adults and small children, provided you're able to go outdoors, and this past weekend worked out well in that regard. (The two girls are very good walkers, particularly as their parents have a sneaky trick on any walk of giving the children a bucket each, and asking them to collect the ten 'most interesting things' they find on the walk.)

It was not exactly restful (I was exhausted every night), but I had a wonderful time. You'll get a feel for things via this photoset — golden sun, lush green vegetation, clouds hanging like cotton wool in the blue sky.
dolorosa_12: (summer sunglasses)
The sun and warmth continues, and I've tried to spend as much time as possible outdoors and moving this weekend. The less said about the state of my mental health, the better — but there are still nice things.

Yesterday, Matthias and I walked for about 10km to the village of Sutton, which was having a beer festival. (I don't drink beer, but I like the vibes of beer festivals in new-to-me venues.) The first half of the walk is lovely: on a little public footway across the typical flat East Anglian fields, then through the village of Witchford (very picturesque), and past an excellent farm and gardening shop. After that, however, the second half of the walk is on a footpath/cycle path along a major motorway, and although it's not difficult to walk (flat footpath all the way), it's very noisy and cluttered with speeding cars.

The beer festival was — incongruously, to my mind — in a church, and was a fairly standard rural English affair: lots of families with little children running wildly around the church, a handful of older men who I see from time to time around Ely, dogs of various sizes, and a massive group of Morris dancers. Matthias and I stayed for a few hours, then caught the little bus back into town (which, astonishingly, arrived on time, and took exactly as long as it was supposed to take on the drive back to central Ely). The weather was so lovely that we stayed out in town, hanging out in the courtyard garden of our favourite cafe/bar (along with everyone else, it seemed), and then eating dinner out in a newish restaurant that we'd been wanting to try for a while.

We were home early, and I was already tired enough by 8pm or so to want to go to bed, but tried to keep myself awake until a reasonable hour ... and of course when I did want to go to sleep, it eluded me for hours, and then was filled with ridiculous anxiety dreams (the dream in which I struggled for what felt like hours to get Zoom to load to teach a class at work, after which point one of my dream!students remarked sourly that if their trainer was unable to get Zoom to work, they didn't trust me to be competent enough to teach the content of the class, seemed too much on the nose even for me).

This morning, I dragged my exhausted self off to the pool, and dragged myself through the sunlit water, then returned home for the usual Sunday morning crepes, and laundry (the sight of which, hanging outside, drifting gently in the warm breeze, did lift my spirits). Matthias and I wandered around town, browsing a few stalls at the market, and generally enjoying the sense of everyone enjoying the first stirrings of spring.

This afternoon will be yoga, and reading, and rest.

Reading this week has been almost exclusively rereads, as I continue my nostalgic way through 1990s Australian YA novels. This time, this consisted of two series by two different authors: Robin Klein's Melling Sisters trilogy (historical fiction about four sisters growing up in genteel poverty in rural 1940s Australia, with a scatterbrained, dreamy mother, and a credulous father who has a tendency to be taken in by all kinds of get rich financial scams — prospecting for gold, buying shares in struggling farms or factories), and Libby Hathorn's Thunderwith and Chrysalis, about a teenage girl taken in by her father and stepmother after her mother's death, struggling to find herself in a life marked by loss and unmooring changes. Both series were as good as I remembered them — Klein's historical fiction in particular, which strikes a perfect balance between wacky childhood hijinks and a serious examination of the pain and petty humilations that come from living so close to the edge of financial disaster — and although they covered serious subject matter, they were exactly the kind of rest my brain needed.

The other book I read — Victoria Amelina's posthumously published Looking at Women Looking at War — was an exquisite piece of writing, and I feel I can't do justice to it in my current state. I'm hopeful I may be able to come back to it later and say more.

The breeze drifts through the open windows. The garden is alive with flocks of wood pigeons, and pairs of blackbirds. There are pink blossoms on the quince trees. The daffodils are promising to bloom, any day now.
dolorosa_12: (summer sunglasses)
There's been a lot going on — lots of travelling, lots of fun things, lots of tiring hot summer sun. This time of year, which is normally a lull at work, has stayed as busy as ever, which has been draining in its own way, and next week the stampede of new NHS staff will begin, so there's no chance of a quieter period this year, it seems.

Two weeks ago, Matthias and I met Mum in London for a long weekend. Matthias's job is actually in London, and normally he commutes three days a week, but for two days he was able to walk to work from our rental place in Waterloo — a lovely journey over the river. Mum and I did two legs of the Thames Path: Staines to Hampton Court, and Teddington to Putney (which involved a lovely stop over in Kew Gardens). These were long walks in quite hot weather, but we took it slowly and appreciated the varied scenery. Here is the photoset from those walks.

As well as the two day hikes, we managed to see three exhibitions: 'In the Eye of the Storm: Modernism in Ukraine, 1900–1930s', 'Tropical Modernism: Architexture and Independence', and 'Yinka Shonibare CBE: Suspended States' (the annual exhibition at the Serpentine Gallery; plus the Serpentine pavillion and Yayoi Kusama sculpture in Kensington Gardens).

As always in London, we ate incredibly well — Polish food, southeast Asian food, a couple of nice pub meals, and a new-to-me bakery just downstairs from our apartment.

Then it was back to Ely for the next working week.

This most recent weekend, there was a bit more walking, but closer to home and on a much smaller scale. On Saturday, Matthias and I took Mum out for lunch at one of our favourite village pub/restaurants, in Hemingford Grey. This involves a train to Cambridge, a bus along the guided busway to St Ives (where the statue of Cromwell was sporting a traffic cone hat — which sparked an unintentionally hilarious BBC news article), and then a walk across the fields, and through suburban woodlands to Hemingford Grey. We ate a relaxed meal out in the courtyard garden, and then headed home. I have a photoset here — you can see that it was a beautiful day.

On Sunday, we joined our hiking group for their monthly hike, although due to the weather and the fact that we'd all eaten a largeish lunch at the farm shop at the start of the walk, this ended up being more like an amble — strolling through the grounds of Wandlebury Country Park, where we saw highland cows, belted cattle, wildflower meadows, a magnificent orchard, and Ely like a little speck in the distance, the cathedral looking like tiny pieces of Lego.

And that's what I've been up to for the past two weeks. I'm granting myself comment amnesty, since I've been both busy and tired, but I have been keeping up to date with my reading page, and look forward to having a bit more time for Dreamwidth soon.

Now I'm going to collapse in front of the TV and watch the gymnastics, and try not to get too irritated with the BBC's somewhat annoying coverage and extremely annoying commentary. All discussion has been about Simone Biles's comeback (and the significant challenges that she's had to overcome), but Suni Lee's comeback has been equally difficult, and also deserves admiration.
dolorosa_12: (limes)
Today's post is a bit of a blissed-out sunny mish-mash. It's been a lazy weekend, almost like taking a deep breath before the frantic business I'm anticipating (for various reasons) for the next couple of weeks.

Yesterday I met Matthias at the market after my two hours of classes at the gym, picked up the final things we needed, then headed home, gulped down lunch, and headed out immediately again for the little outdoor fair outside the cathedral (which was raising money for the boys' choir). It was the usual mix of food trucks and craft stalls — although the draw for us (and the thing which brought us out of the house again, despite the grey skies and gusty winds) was the chance to buy champagne and little bowls of strawberries and cream, which we consumed on a park bench and tried not to be blown away. We might have lingered longer (or walked to the other side of town where two friends of ours were holding their annual plant sale in their garden), but the weather drove us home. I slowly cooked Burmese food for dinner, and then we tucked ourselves into the armchairs in the living room, where I read Leigh Bardugo's latest book (The Familiar, of which more later) in a single sitting.

Today, we woke naturally at about 5.30am due to the sunshine, and dozed on and off until it was time for me to walk to the gym for my 8am swim, which genuinely felt like swimming through liquid sunlight. I spent the morning after my return from the pool picking away at my [community profile] rarepairexchange assignment, which finally unlocked for me after many weeks of difficulty.

But the weather was too nice for us to remain sequestered indoors, so out we went again for food truck food from the market (Tibetan for me, Greek for Matthias), sitting under the trees in the courtyard garden of our beloved favourite bar/cafe. When we arrived, the place was empty, and after about ten minutes, every table was taken — such is the characteristic behaviour of British people when the sun finally deigns to shine.

Now I'm trawling through Dreamwidth, and trying to decide whether I should go out again for gelato or stay in the house — I suspect the gelato will win! I've been gathering Dreamwidth links like a magpie, and will share them with you:

Via [personal profile] vriddy: the Japanese Film Festival Online in which 'a variety of 23 films will be delivered during the first two weeks, followed by two TV drama series for the subsequent two weeks. These will be streamed for free with subtitles in up to 16 languages, available in up to 27 countries/regions.' I imagine this may be of interest to some in my circle.

Some steps to take to ensure any eligible British voters in your life have the requisite ID and voter registration required by the deadlines to vote in the upcoming 4th July general elction, via [community profile] thissterlingcrew. There are particular concerns about younger voters, so do pass these details on to any 18-24-year-olds you know.

Staying with politics (in this case US), this Timothy Snyder essay really resonated with me, as his commentary and analysis generally does. Voting, for me (and treating elections seriously), is like the bare minimum tax we pay for the enormous unearned good fortune of being citizens of (albeit flawed) democracies.

On a lighter note, I just went on a downloading spree from these gorgeous batches of icons from [community profile] insomniatic (here) and [personal profile] svgurl (here); perhaps you'll see something you like too.

And then I took a bunch of photos of all the fruit trees in our garden.

And finally, on to reading, and Bardugo's wonderful The Familiar. This is a standalone adult fantasy novel set in Spain during the early years of the Inquisition, and its focus is on the paranoid, terrifying antisemitic, anti-Muslim, anti-any-non-normative-Catholic-Christianity atmosphere of the era. Its protagonist, Luzia, is a young Jewish conversa, born into a family which for several generations has maintained its Jewish identity in secret, following religious and cultural practices as best as they can while removed from the Jewish community so necessary for those practices to find full expression. In addition to this dangerous heritage, Luzia is able to perform magic (in a stroke of genius, the mechanism for doing so is Ladino refranes or proverbs, and the act of speaking, and language as a kind of cultural and personal magic, are at the centre of the novel), which brings her to the attention of Madrid's aristocratic elite. This fame brings Luzia (and those around her) nothing but grief, and the novel as a portrait of the constant anxiety sparked by attracting the notice of the powerful is a brilliant, stressful piece of writing.

The Familiar really does feel at last like Bardugo's novel of the heart: my reactions to her previous fiction range from adoration to being left cold, but all have felt to me to have been written to the market, hitting on a winning trend at exactly the right moment in exactly the right way. She has, of course, been incredibly successful while doing so, and I would assume wrote with some degree of affection for this previous output — but The Familiar definitely feels like the first of her books that was written not to satisfy a specific trend in genre fiction, but solely for Bardugo's own need. The soul sings stories to us, and some of us are lucky enough to be able to give those stories voice, and sing back.
dolorosa_12: (summer drink)
I feel as if the whole month of August just ran me over like a train, between my mum's visit, trying to cram in a huge amount of work into a couple of weeks, two major renovation projects on our house (requiring dealing with contractors, etc), and then another holiday with Matthias. I've barely been around on Dreamwidth, and when I have logged in, I haven't felt I had the energy to comment on people's posts or reply to any comments that a post of my own might prompt. But now, finally, I have time to catch my breath — after returning from travel yesterday, dealing with the mountain of work emails that accumulated while I was away, and putting out various small fires caused by my own distractedness at work prior to the holiday. I've made a series of lists, which always makes me feel a whole lot better, and now I can sit here, and write about where I've been over the past week.

Matthias and I always try to have a holiday of at least a week together, away from home, doing something that's not visiting family (when both halves of a couple are immigrants, leave allocation often swiftly fills up with trips to visit family, since unlike people who live in the same country as their families, we can't very easily drop by and see our parents for a weekend). I've had an aim for quite a while now of travelling to at least one new-to-me country per year, although this is the first time since 2019 that that's been possible; while I travelled a lot last year, it was always to countries that I had visited before.

Matthias and I also have two friends who live in Vienna — and we last visited them in 2019 as well. We decided, therefore, to kill two birds with one stone, and go on holiday somewhere new-to-us that was reachable by train in a day from Vienna. After researching our options, we picked Slovenia, and booked a four-day stay in Ljubljana. We made our way there in fits and starts — an afternoon train trip to Brussels, a stay overnight in a budget hotel near the station, a day travelling across Belgium, Germany and Austria by train, and a weekend with our friends L and V in Vienna, during which time we wandered around the city, taking breaks from the heat in various cafes and restaurants, and took the train out to a village near the city, where we walked through vineyards and had lunch (and wine from those same vineyards), and finally a slow, six-hour train ride along rivers and mountains dotted with vineyards, sheep, and cornfields to Ljubljana. (We dubbed the train the 'Habsburg Express' because it started in Vienna, inched its way through Austria and Slovenia, and ended up in Trieste; travelling at about the speed you'd expect from a Habsburg-era train as well...)

The weather in Ljubljana was unfortunately not conducive to our preferred holiday activities — walking around an unfamiliar city, chatting with each other, and pausing for meals, coffee, or glasses of beer/wine — since it rained torrentially for the first two full days we were there. We made the best of it, however, and visited two contemporary art museums, walked along the river on both sides and in both directions whenever there was a break in the rain, and tried out almost all the restaurants, wine bars, craft beer bars, and cafes that had come highly recommended. My highlight in this regard was probably this cocktail bar, a tiny jewel of a place doing incredibly strange cocktails (or any classic cocktail on request) with exquisite attention to detail.

The highlights of the trip were definitely the restaurant in one of the turrets of the castle above the city, where we had a tasting menu with wine pairings (another thing we like to do in every new-to-us city), and the trip out to Lake Bled which we did on the one day in which there was no rain forecast. We walked around the lake (a flat paved trail of about 6km — easy walking, although quite crowded with families, tourists, and groups of cyclists), pausing to swim in the sparkling water, with the clouds and craggy mountains mirrored beside us — had lunch in a lakeside cafe, and made it back to Ljubljana in time for dinner. (If anyone is thinking of doing something similar, I'd recommend travelling by bus rather than by train as the train station is an hours' walk from the town; the buses leave every hour and are pretty cheap, although be warned you'll need to pay in cash.)

I took a huge bunch of photos on the trip, particularly of the lake, the water of which is full of the most unbelievable colours and textures. If you have an Instagram account, you can see them at [instagram.com profile] ronnidolorosa.

The return journey was a quite a bit more stressful due to chaos and cancellations on behalf of Deutsche Bahn (the cursed corridor between Cologne, Aachen and Brussels seems to be a particular problem, as exactly the same thing happened to my mum in exactly the same area on her train trips to and from Berlin in early August), and although it used to be possible to travel from Vienna to Cambridge(shire) in a single day by train, I now wouldn't recommend it, and indeed wouldn't recommend trying to do any trip that involves train travel through Germany and a Eurostar connection in a single day. We will not make that mistake twice, and will always stay overnight in Brussels or Amsterdam and catch the Eurostar the following morning. Eurostar changed our booking without charging any additional costs (my advice here is to follow what we did and not try to rebook yourself online/through the app, but rather go to the Eurostar gate and explain the situation; the staff member rebooked us immediately and didn't ask for any payment of any kind) and we should be able to claim back the cost of the hotel booking necessitated by DB's chaos, but it made what had been — up to Cologne — a relaxing, chilled out time zooming through central Europe on fast moving, on-time trains into a tense, anxiety-inducing nightmare.

In any case, that was a long digression about trains, which was not the note on which I meant to end things! The holiday itself was lovely, and in general it's just been so wonderful to be able to travel internationally again. I feel incredibly lucky.
dolorosa_12: (summer drink)
I've had a very busy (by my standards) few days, to the extent that in some ways it feels as if the weekend was four days long, even though I had to work two of them. Due to a strange set of circumstances, I've ended up working in the library in Cambridge for three consecutive days (Wednesday-Thursday-Friday), and will be working another three consecutive days next week (Monday-Tuesday-Wednesday), whereas I normally only work in person on Wednesdays. I have no idea how I used to manage to work in person five days a week, week in, week out, because just three days in a row now feels incredibly draining.

On Thursday evening, Matthias and I walked the 8km or so out to Littleport, a village to the north of us along the river, and had dinner at an Italian restaurant that had been recommended to me by a colleague. It was still pretty warm and humid, so the walking felt effortful, even at 6pm. The food at the restaurant was great, and incredibly cheap (less than £10 for a main course), and the waiter was what you might describe as 'a character,' discouraging people from ordering certain dishes on the menu, and chatting endlessly with the Irish family at the next table over. It's definitely the best place to eat in Littleport, so I'll certainly be back the next time we walk out there.

On Friday evening I met Matthias in the centre of town, where there was the monthly food truck event happening. We had dinner, and then ended up at a '90s silent disco in the cathedral. The place was full of people mainly our age and older (and, as usual when events involving nostalgic '90s music take place, seemed to have attracted every Polish person in the region), although with pockets of zoomers whose presence baffled me given they weren't even alive when most of this music was a thing. There were three different DJs playing the three different channels on the headsets — '90s pop, '90s alternative, '90s hip hop — I flicked between the channels according to the song and my whim, danced my heart out, and generally had a wonderful time.

On Saturday, we did another walk — this time around 8km through various villages into Haddenham, which was hosting a beer festival/community fair on the village park. The walk took us through the usual kinds of fenland landscapes — lots of flat fields of wheat, paddocks full of horses, hedgerows and brambles under skies filled with low-hanging fluffy clouds. I'm not a beer drinker, so beer festivals in general aren't hugely interesting to me, but I love these kinds of village community events from a sociological perspective, and had a great time sitting out in the open air, listening to some rather dreadful local music acts, and people-watching.

Finally, we spent the middle of the day out at 'Aquafest,' a local fair thingy that involves various food and drink and tat stalls, fairground rides, and a race of homemade boats/rafts on the river. As we were walking home, I could see a group of four people struggling to stay afloat on their sinking craft, with one oar drifting away down the river, which probably gives you an accurate idea of the vibe of the whole thing. We ate soft tacos, wandered around for a bit, and then headed home.

I've been so busy this week that I don't have any new books to log here, which is strange for me, but I suppose if you take all the above into account it's not all that surprising.
dolorosa_12: (summer drink)
It's too hot to write a long post today, and in any case I haven't been doing anything particularly exciting this weekend. Leaving the house has been an unbearable exercise in walking through increasing heat and humidity, and although it's been necessary at various points (to go to my two fitness classes, to visit the little local art gallery, to pick up such necessities as gelato), it's not been exactly pleasant. The fact that my desire to cool down with an iced coffee is warring with my disinclination to walk even the ten minutes to the bakery to get said iced coffee probably sums things up perfectly.

I spent most of this morning after I got back from the pool lying around on the bed, alternating between finishing my book and dozing, while the breeze blew heavily through the open window. It's another one of those days when I don't want to eat much more than tomato salad and cold fruit; one of our cherry trees is absolutely laden with ripe cherries but even the effort to pick them feels like too much, so I resort instead to grabbing handfuls every time I have to go out into the garden.

Other than rereads, I finished one book this week — Emily Wilde's Encyclopedia of Faeries (Harriet Fawcett). This is the first in what I assume will be a trilogy (but what I had thought before completing it to be a standalone novel) in which the titular character, a folklorist working on the titular encyclopedia, travels to a fake fantasy version of an indedeterminate Scandinavian village to complete the last piece of fieldwork necessary for her research. The fairy lore is very well done, ringing extremely true to someone like me, whose most borrowed book from the public library as a teenager was definitely Katharine Briggs's Encyclopedia of Fairies, and overall I wanted to like the book a lot more than I ended up doing — I love stories about the interactions between humans and scary otherworldly beings, I particularly love stories that involve people travelling to the otherworld to release their family, lovers or neighbours from captivity, and all the weird and wonderful rules they need to follow in order to survive.

What I do not love are stories that are obviously in conversation with previous well-received books about nineteenth- or early twentieth-century Britain, scholarship and the occult (in a version of our world in which magic and the supernatural are real and everyone accepts this), such as Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell, Sorcerer to the Crown, or Jeannette Ng's Under the Pendulum Sun, but which don't seem to have made much effort to accurately represent academia during that period. The faux academic writing and the author's various descriptions of both research and academic conferences do not ring true at all — they seem more like the twenty-first-century versions of all these things. To top things off, for a book that is trying create a sense of sort of quirky Britishness, there are glaring Americanisms that crept in — 'fall' instead of 'autumn,' and 'backpack' instead of 'rucksack,' were the ones I spotted, but I'm sure there were more. I have to say that all this really soured me on the book — and I wonder what on Earth the book's editor was doing. Either they didn't notice these things, or they didn't think they mattered — neither reflects well on their abilities.

And that's about where I'm at in terms of the weekend. I'm trying to motivate myself to do an hour-long yoga class, but as I will need to do this in the hottest room of the house, I'm not currently feeling a huge amount of enthusiasm at the prospect!
dolorosa_12: (quidam)
The sweltering, humid weather continues, so thank you very much to everyone who commented on my most recent Friday open thread post. There's some good advice about tricks to combat sleeplessness, and I learnt a lot, which I very much appreciate.

I had to go into Cambridge for some errands yesterday, and as usual when this happens, Matthias and I made a day of it. Central Cambridge itself was heaving with people, so we avoided it for the most part, instead walking out across the fields for 5km or so into Madingley, where we ate lunch at the pub/restaurant there, sitting outside under a canopy, eating cold seafood, asparagus with potato dumplings, and heirloom tomato salad, washed down with crisp, white wine. It was lovely and relaxing, and the walk, while short and mainly across flat lands, was made more challenging by the heat. I stuck up a photoset on Instagram.

Twitter has been actively triggering (and I do not use that word lightly) for me for similar reasons relating to at least three unrelated situations, and by Friday I realised I'd hit my absolute limit, and haven't been back since. I'm pretty good at avoiding the place for long stretches when I know it's necessary (the longest period probably lasted around nine months, a couple of years ago), so it's likely to be a significant period of time before I go back again. To calm down and restore some sense of equilibrium, I've been focusing on the sorts of Instagram accounts that I find soothing — a lot of cottagecore-ish stuff, and generally people who post beautiful things. Here is a short, but illustrative list:

  • [instagram.com profile] westcountry_hedgelayer: a man who builds and restores traditional hedgerows in rural Britain

  • [instagram.com profile] provencallife: a man who posts beautiful photos and videos from various parts of Provence

  • [instagram.com profile] boroughchef: soothing cookery videos of vegetarian meals

  • [instagram.com profile] redrubyrose: a woman who makes bags, wallets, purses and scarves using hand-dyed materials, with lots of photos of her inspirations from nature, and the process of creating the products

  • [instagram.com profile] alysonsimplygrows: gorgeous photos of gardens, interiors, and renovations

  • [instagram.com profile] momentsbyjemma: photos and reels of interiors, cooking and baking, gardens and farmland taken by a woman who lives on a working farm in the south coast of New South Wales in Australia

  • [instagram.com profile] theswissshepherdess: breathtakingly beautiful photos and videos by a woman who, together with her husband, herds sheep, goats, cows and horses in the Swiss alps


  • The combination of the heat, and everything else, has left me feeling fairly uninspired when it comes to reading, but I've been working my way through rereads of the more 'summery' books in Susan Cooper's The Dark Is Rising series: so far I've done the two set in a Cornish seaside village (Greenwitch and Over Sea, Under Stone), and I'm just about to pick up Silver on the Tree. The first two make me yearn for the seaside, which I suppose is unsurprising. Silver on the Tree will likely irritate me all over again with that ending (if you know, you know), but we always have fanfic, of which I have contributed my share of fix its to this particular canon.

    I'll close off this post with a strong recommendation for the film that Matthias and I watched last night: Rye Lane, a romantic comedy about two young Black people in London, meeting in strange circumstances, telling each other their stories, revealing (and not revealing) truths about themselves, during a rambling, sweeping wander through the streets of London that in some way mirrors the rambling, sweeping way in which they both let one another into their lives. It's a glorious love letter to London — but a London seen through the eyes of an alternate universe version of Wes Anderson who is a Black, British, TikTok-using twentysomething, with a keen eye for the surreal and quirky. If you have Disney+, it should be available for you to watch as part of the subscription. It's compassionate and warm-hearted, made me laugh out loud in places, is sharply observed, and gorgeous to look at.
    dolorosa_12: (summer drink)
    Another weekend, another attempt to spend as much time as possible outdoors in the summery, sunlit air. The bakery was doing a wine-tasting event on Friday evening — all slightly sparkling, natural wines — so we went there for dinner, and nibbled on cheese and charcuterie and sipped wine in the courtyard garden. It's light until nearly 10pm here now, so we were under clear blue skies for most of the evening.

    Yesterday, the plan was to head off to Waterbeach, which is a village between here and Cambridge. Normally this would be very easy — just ten minutes or so on the train, of which there are plenty — but it was a train strike, meaning we were limited to the hourly buses, the last of which leaves Cambridge around 6pm. On top of this, Cambridge was hosting its annual Strawberry Fair event, which always draws in lots of people, so everyone who would normally have been on a train (which have between 4-8 carriages and go to Cambridge three times an hour) was crammed onto a single bus, which only runs once an hour. The bus going there was late by 40 minutes, and the one coming back was 20 minutes late, and very crowded.

    We were going to Waterbeach to visit the taproom of a beer brewery which only opens up for retail customers once a month. It's out in an industrial estate and isn't particularly pretty — all concrete and steel — but with a food truck, and a bunch of people sitting under umbrellas, and sunny, breezy weather, it ended up feeling pretty pleasant. I'm not a beer drinker, but I'm definitely a food truck appreciater, and this time it was a pizza place with a woodfired oven, which was very welcome.

    Our neighbours had their barbecue going last night, but the only nod to the outdoors at home that I've managed this weekend is hanging the laundry outside. We do have a terrace with a table and chairs, but even with the umbrella it's in full sun for most of the day, which is too bright and glary for me.

    After all the travelling (which really wasn't that far away, but took ages and was a bit stressful due to the aforementioned bus nonsense), it's been good to have Sunday at home, and catch up on reading. I gulped down an entire trilogy by Charlie N. Holmberg, who is an authors whose premises always sound like exactly my thing, but whose execution always seems to take a lot of the sting out of ideas that would work better if they were given just a bit more darkness. (I think she's just too timid and conservative to do so.) Her general thing is to set up a situation in which a young woman is being exploited in some way that is a) incredibly physically painful to her and b) erodes her sense of self in some manner, with a rogue-with-a-heart-of-gold love interest who ends up trying to save her in spite of his more mercenary impulses. (In this Numina trilogy, for example, the young woman is indentured to a criminal gang-leader who forces her to become possessed by demons.) The trouble is, I'm always entirely uninterested in the roguish love interests, and more interested in the heroine's relationships with the demons, monsters, and vengeful, implacable gods who are trying to possess and/or marry her. At this point, I've read at least five or six books by Holmberg, so I know what I'm getting in for, and try to read around the edges of the story actually there on the pages, and imagine I'm reading something else.

    Beyond reading and wandering, it's been a pretty standard weekend, with the usual chores and physical exercise, and a good mix between movement and stillness. I'm still not feeling great mentally, but at least the things I can control are generally happening in the way I want and expect.
    dolorosa_12: (garden pond)
    This morning, the swimming pool was filled with the most glorious light, and moving forward through the water felt like swimming in sunshine. Summer is most definitely in the air, and every household in our row of terraces has had laundry hung outside on the washing lines, people mowing the lawn or doing other gardening work, or people lighting up the barbecue for dinner. Or, in the case of our household, all three. The air smells deliciously of barbecue smoke, and cut grass.

    Matthias and I made the most of the sunshine — a couple of drinks in the terrace garden of our favourite local bar/cafe on Friday night, Saturday afternoon spent in the suntrap garden of the bakery, the aforementioned barbecue dinner eaten outside on our deck under the fruit trees on Saturday, and lunch today at the food/bar/coffee cart outdoor venue run by the people who also run the town's main coffee roasters and bagel bar. The sun and warmth and general presence of other people has been extremely restorative.

    I can feel my cooking adapting to suit the season — wild garlic pesto stirred through some spaghetti with olive oil, loads of grilled vegetables and halloumi on the barbecue, this potato and asparagus salad, scrambled eggs stirred through with herbs from the garden. It feels like a neverending feast, an abundance of greenery.

    I've spent most of this afternoon reading, completely engrossed in my current book, The Stars Undying (Emery Robin), a space opera retelling of the story of Julius Caesar and Cleopatra, reminiscent in some ways of Arkady Martine's A Memory Called Empire. Some of the characters have been genderswapped (Mark Antony is now a loyal soldier called Anita, for example, and the Caesar analogue is married to another man), and things have been adapted to make sense in an empire that spans a galaxy rather than several continents, but a lot of the joy of the book is those flashes of recognition when you see how Robin has remade certain familiar players in this geopolitical melodrama. It's a story not just about power, but also about that strange sense of belief that certain people possess — that when something is wrong, they alone can fix it, and can only fix it by accumulating as much power as possible and warping the world (or indeed the entire galaxy) to serve their own power. And it's about what happens when two people, both possessing this same relentless drive for power, masquerading even in their own minds as a way to fix the problems of the world, crash up against each other — and the consequences. I love it, but I have a strong suspicion it's the sort of thing you're best placed to love if your knowledge of the final days of the Roman Republic and the early days of the Roman Empire is entirely pop cultural.

    I had hoped to read more, but the glorious weather conspired against me, and I can't really be disappointed in that. I feel like some kind of flowering tree creature, emerging in a cascade of petals and bees and green leaves into the light, and the warmth, at last.
    dolorosa_12: (summer drink)
    It's a long weekend here, and this has thankfully coincided with the appearance of the sun, after what was apparently a very cold, drizzly April. Matthias and I have been taking full advantage of this, spending as much time outdoors as possible.

    On Friday evening there was the monthly event with food trucks, and we had bagels with salt beef and pickles for dinner, sitting outside in the beer garden of our favourite local bar.

    Saturday began with my usual two fitness classes at the gym, which were a bit of a struggle after a month away in Australia where the only exercise I'd been doing was swimming and walking — but I survived. I then met Matthias in town, and we fought our way through the crowds and chaos to do our weekly shopping in the market. We followed this up by having lunch out at the annual 'eel day,' which is a local fair with food trucks, craft stalls, performances by local choirs, ballet students, etc. The eels come into it because there's an element of local/natural history, including all things fen eels. I've only ever been during pandemic semi-lockdowns, when I found this a rather depressing affair, but the non-lockdown version was loads of fun, sitting in the park by the river, eating South African food and drinking Pimms. We returned home in the afternoon via [instagram.com profile] bakeshop.generalstore, which has the most amazing suntrap courtyard garden, and a great variety of wines by the glass.

    I felt a bit slow and sleepy this morning, but made it out to the pool for my regular 8am 1km swim, before returning home to make crepes for breakfast and hang laundry outside (for the first time this year). Then Matthias and I walked 9km along the river to Littleport, having lunch outside on the deck by the water at the local pub. It was a gorgeous day, and the river was alive with boat traffic, walkers, bike-riders, and birds. We returned home on the train, and have just been back for half an hour or so. I'm going to spend the evening pottering around on Dreamwidth, reading, doing yoga, and so on.

    Tomorrow, the weather's meant to be terrible, so I don't think we're going to spend much time outdoors, besides possibly checking out the food fair that's happening on the lawns outside the cathedral. I'm going to cook a roast chicken, and snuggle up on the couch, and generally catch my breath before the working week begins.

    Honestly, I don't think I could have asked for a better long weekend — it's been perfect!
    dolorosa_12: (black sails)
    Like much of southeastern England, we've been experiencing a heatwave for the entire week, and a drought for the entire summer — apart from a brief shower of about ten minutes, two weeks ago (which immediately evaporated), it hasn't rained here since May, and the grass is dead and dry. I find it genuinely terrifying, particularly since there appears to be little official action to mitigate the effects. In Australia, I would expect to see routine water restrictions, and a total fire ban, but of course there has been nothing of the sort. (I double checked just now and saw nothing but the big local water compnanies putting out press releases saying they would not impose water restrictions and a government announcement basically saying it was water companies' responsibility to impose such things. I find the latter completely irrational and horrifying — this is surely the responsibility of governments rather than private industry!)

    And of course, with no bans in place, I've seen people merrily using sprinklers to water their gardens, hosing down hard surfaces or washing cars with a hose. There still also seems to be a dangerous emphasis in some parts of the press of treating all this as just some lovely warm summer weather, with photos of people swimming at the beach or basking in the sun at picnics. Meanwhile, I feel as if there should be an official campaign teaching people how to protect their houses and gardens against bushfires — all I see when I look at those expanses of dry grass is a handy collection of tinder and kindling. I feel anxious every time I smell smoke, and have to figure out whether someone is having a barbecue, or whether it's something more sinister.

    This weekend, I've done my best to avoid the heat and move as little as possible. I had to go to the market, but I managed to be back at home by 9am, and other than that I just made morning trips to the bakery down the road to get an iced coffee. I've spent the rest of the time at home, strategically opening and closing windows and curtains depending on the position of the sun, doing very slow, gentle yoga, reading undemanding books, and watching undemanding TV (of which more in later posts). If I'd planned things better I would have avoided cooking altogether, but I'm not the biggest fan of cold food like salad, so cooking had to happen.

    I just wish it would rain. Proper, stormy, deluging rain, for hours and days at a time. It doesn't often rain here in the summer, but two months and counting without rain is unnerving and oppressive. The heat goes on.
    dolorosa_12: (beach shells)
    Yesterday, Matthias and I returned after a week away on holiday by the seaside. We went to Southwold, on the Suffolk coast, which is an easy trip for us on public transport (2 hours on the train, half an hour on a bus). The two of us don't tend to holiday in the UK — in fact, apart from trips to visit friends elsewhere in the country, and occasional weekends in London, I don't think we have ever used annual leave to stay somewhere within the UK. Last year, of course, we didn't leave the country — but we didn't leave Cambridge, either! All our holidays were at home. We really couldn't face another year like that, and when we were planning when to claim our annual leave, Matthias remarked that he desperately wanted a holiday where we went somewhere, I remarked that I was desperate to see the ocean, and he (who is the booker and planner in our household) investigated a bit and suggested Southwold. It was a really good decision.

    What we did on our holiday )

    I'll do another post in the next couple of days about the books I read while on holiday, because they were a great bunch, several chosen on the basis of reviews people in my Dreamwidth circle have posted.
    dolorosa_12: (fever ray)
    It's been a fairly quiet weekend, although Matthias and I did make it out of the house on Saturday, spending the afternoon sitting in the beautiful courtyard garden of my favourite cafe/bar in town. We met up with [personal profile] notasapleasure and her husband, who brought homemade Georgian food (the bar doesn't do food, but lets you bring your own stuff), and their gigantic greyhound, who spent most of the time napping in the shade. [personal profile] notasapleasure also introduced me to the delight which is the Ukrainian Eurovision band's singer's Instagram account, which is exactly as you'd imagine. So many people in fandom came away from this year's Eurovision as devoted Måneskin fans, but I'm all about Ukrainian Trinity-from-The Matrix and her giant eagles.

    It's been bakingly hot by UK standards, and I haven't done much more than read: Murder in July (the fourteenth Benjamin January mystery, which involved events from Ben's past in Paris, and many cameos by Ayasha, which I always enjoy), and A Dowry of Blood by ST Gibson (gothic novella from the perspective of one of Dracula's 'brides', written in an almost epistolary style; suffers a bit from really poor copyediting).

    I'll leave you with a link that may be of relevance to UK-based people, via [community profile] thissterlingcrew: how to opt out of the NHS sharing your health data with third parties. Two things to note: there is a deadline of 23rd June to opt out of this, and it appears so far only to cover NHS patients in England, not the other nations (that said, if, for example, you currently live in Scotland but lived and saw a GP in England in the past, you may want to check if your old health data from that time would be included — better to be safe than sorry).
    dolorosa_12: (sunflowers)
    Yesterday was the second public holiday in May. Unlike some of the other public holidays in the UK calendar (the Easter long weekend, etc), the two Mondays in May are not mandatory days off at my workplace, and instead our practice is that each employee gets one as leave, and has to work the other. For various reasons, I had elected to work the earlier May public holiday, and take yesterday off, and I definitely made the right decision: the first holiday was grey, raining and freezing, and yesterday was cloudless, warm, and sunny.

    For the first time since December 2019, Matthias and I got on the train for reasons other than trundling between Cambridge and Ely for work or appointments, travelling to one of the villages that dots the river, and then walking for an hour or so along the towpath to another village, where we ate a great meal outdoors in a restaurant. Such a little thing — a totally normal way to spend a long weekend in the before times — but it seemed like such a wild adventure! Here's a photoset.

    I'll leave you with this beautiful photo essay of swimming pools, photographed from above. Many of them are in Sydney, and were regular haunts during my childhood and early adulthood. It's in the New York Times, so if you've read several articles there this month and don't have a subscription you may be faced with a paywall. The whole aesthetic very much captures my current mood!
    dolorosa_12: (sunflowers)
    It's 20 degrees, all the windows in the house are open, and Matthias has put on a playlist in which every song sounds as if it's a 70s disco hit remixed by a 90s house DJ. In other words, summer is here, and not a moment too soon.

    May was pretty horrible, to be honest. It rained almost every single day, it was freezing, and I barely left the house. The rain made the garden turn into an unruly jungle — massive weeds everywhere, the grass growing to knee height and filled with cow parsley, etc — which made me feel stressed and unhappy. This weekend we were finally able to get out and fix things: Matthias mowed the lawn and cleaned the deck, and I weeded the vegetable patch and flowerbeds. This instantly improved my mood. We also finally assembled our garden furniture — a table, chairs and massive umbrella. I haven't spent much time out there, but I think we're going to hang out and read in an hour or so. It's the first time it's really been warm enough for this.

    As is always the case in the UK when there's the slightest hint of sunshine, every public green space in town is full of people sunbathing, picnicking, and so on. We didn't join them, but we did head out to buy gelato and wander along beside the river, which was packed with swans, ducks, and geese. There wasn't a single cloud in the sky, the sun was warm on my skin, and life felt good.

    I've let my reading and TV log lapse a bit, but I want to throw in a quick recommendation for the book I finished last week: The Wolf Den by Elodie Harper. This is a work of historical fiction centred on enslaved women working in a brothel in Pompeii, and Harper drew on real Pompeiian graffiti (at least insofar as the characters' names are concerned; obviously it's not possible to glean more than that from such sources) when creating her characters. It's not a gentle story — none of these women are doing such work by choice, and their lives are brutal, subject to sudden outbursts of inescapable violence. But in giving these women voice, Harper also gives them a sense of community and solidarity, and even moments of joy and agency. I highly recommend it, although as you might imagine it comes with the sorts of content warnings you'd expect for the subject matter.

    I hope everyone has been enjoying their weekends, and that the sun has shone in your direction!

    Edited to add: garden photoset.
    dolorosa_12: (dolorosa)
    This is a day for summery music, and so, Miami Horror:



    It is still over 30 degrees. Matthias has camped out in the bedroom with the fan on, and is binge-watching shows on Netflix, and honestly, that's about all that it's possible to do in this heat. I've already had two nosebleeds, and just generally feel really sleepy. I'm not looking forward to having to go back to work(ing from home) tomorrow, when it's again going to be around 35 degrees. I will get through it, of course, but I am feeling grouchy about the prospect.

    Onwards to books. My copy of the first volume of The Old Guard comic arrived this week, and I devoured it pretty quickly. Having read it, I don't feel that the film deviated too much from the source material except in terms of surface details — and if anything the characters get more depth in the film. I'm glad I read it, though, and will no doubt buy the other volumes when I'm able.

    I also read Aliette de Bodard's novelette, 'The Inaccessibility of Heaven', which feels like it takes place in another corner of her Dominion of the Fallen post-apocalyptic fallen angels universe. Like that trilogy, it's a story where there are no easy choices — a world rife with power imbalances and exploitation, and humans and angsty immortal beings cautiously dancing around each other, trying to find a way to survive. It's a good story, but not a happy one.

    And now I'm going to collapse in front of the fan, and read things that don't require much effort...
    dolorosa_12: (sunflowers)
    It is baking — or at least, with three consecutive days of more than 30-degree heat, the UK equivalent. Sleeping has been difficult, and tasks requiring a great deal of brainpower have been even more so.

    Thankfully, it is the weekend, and other than repotting a herb seedling into the larger container garden outside, and hanging out laundry to sit limply in the still heat, I haven't had much to do that's required any exertion. We did make it out to Grantchester this morning (leaving the house before 8am), when the temperature was still only 16 degrees or so, but other than that I've barely left the wing chair, drinking iced coffee, eating frozen grapes, and reading.

    Books )

    That's it, in terms of reading for this weekend. I'm going to try to find a very slow, gentle yoga class to do, check out the latest segment of the Lore Olympus webcomic (just released today), and try to avoid melting!
    dolorosa_12: (amelie)
    I'm not normally one for podcasts, audio/video interviews, or really anything where I'm expected to take in information from audio content alone, but I've found myself enjoying the great wealth of offerings currently available in the wake of the pandemic. A lot of authors who would normally have been promoting their new publications with tours, face-to-face book launches and so on are having to be more creative, and the result has been a lot of fun, free events online. Whereas before I would have been unable to attend events that happened in the US (or even elsewhere in the UK — it's hard enough for me to get to a book launch in London), I'm now able to participate from the comfort of my living room.

    I listened to a live chat between Tasha Suri and Rowenna Miller about historical fantasy two days ago, last night I watched SA Chakraborty on Instagram Live (this actually wasn't that good, because the person interviewing her was dreadful and didn't ask any interesting questions, but I appreciated the opportunity to hear about the Daevabad trilogy getting its own Netflix show!), and this morning I listened to Philip Pullman and Michael Rosen talk about writing and language on the BBC. The latter probably would have happened, pandemic or not, but it was still delightful.

    I'm not sure all this has turned me into an audio convert, but it's been a nice, diverting distraction.

    Today's post's title is brought to you by one of my favourite songs, which just sounds like summer feels.

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